"Since the first day"

I am born from the love between two people and it is the same place where my sense of abandonment is formed. I feel a painful bond with my mother and also my grandmother indirectly, with whom I share the same feeling, which is perpetuated from generation

Obsessed with the search for the roots of my suffering, I feel the need to take photos almost compulsively in some moments of my existence, I want to understand the meaning, find an impossible order, exorcise the pain, not let go of people but also objects dear to me, make them immortal through photographs. I am born from the love between two people and it is the same place where my sense of abandonment is formed. I feel a painful bond with my mother and also my grandmother indirectly, with whom I share the same feeling, which is perpetuated from generation to generation. I feel the need to know where all this comes from: why after the death of my grandfather, was my mother taken to Valtellina, away from her mother at just two years old? Why did my paternal grandfather run away from home when my father was just eight years old? Why did my mother decide to leave home when I was only eight? Why do we create life and destroy it at the same time? Understanding this helps me to be able to forgive and forgive myself, to put things in order, even if only to pretend. "From day one" wants to be a hymn to life. An absent mother opens a chasm that does not close, a pain that continues to pulsate inexorably. You can overcome a mother's death, but not her emotional detachment, especially during early childhood.

The project works as if it were a disjointed memory that jumps from one place to another, I want the names of the subjects and places in the photos to disappear. The focus is on the behaviors, gestures, and patterns that pass from one generation to the next, as well as natural events that occur in life, such as birth or death.

“An absent parent doesn't kill, but lets childhood, dreams, tenderness die.”