Short Term Memories

Being a woman in Indonesia is quite difficult but being a mother is more difficult because social expectation about motherhood is very high and demanding to woman who become mothers, there is perfection.

I started this photo project , when i experienced the fear and unpreparedness of being a mother.

Through this work I reveal the emotional journey that was present when I started it. I tried all the things read in books and messages of parents about how to be a mother. but that was not enough. changes continue to occur which then creates a feeling of imperfection. why am I imperfect?

But the answer to why I'm not perfect is answered by time. that everything I learn must be done, so that it is not only a question and a burden on my mind, The experiences I go through every day are quite effective in reducing the sense of imperfection. I learned to be grateful for the many things I went through together.

Along this journey i realized that being a mother there is no such thing called perfect motherhood because motherhood is actually to me is endless connection with the child and accepting the limitations.

When i became a mother , i found out that due to stress i lost my short term memory until today. This project is personal journey where i started to make new memories with my daughter.

Apart from being a trail of what I have been through and creating a bonding relationship with my daughter, I want to share the experience that apart from bad things there are always good things we can get. We just need to learn to look for it.