Metamorphosis (how i learnt to change my body)

As a woman, there are various ways i have approached my sexuality, in surreal, creepy, loving, in the mind of others, in my own mind, hiding behind flowers, in veil of the family, the animals, in the deep, deep sexual desires that appear in my conscious through my dreams or sometimes watching movies that turned me on mentally and physically. Many times, i would look at movies and heroines and then go look at myself naked in the room, marking mentally where i wanted to lose weight so i could look sexy and desirable. A lot of my years of my life have been spent desiring a version of my body or a body that i have seen in visuals, unable to love it just the way it is, in vain attempts. I have constructed many versions of my sexual self, sometimes from my own body and more than that - a borrowed vision of the female body that i have been bombarded with. These images are a manifestation of the space where imagination and reality blur wherein i feel connected to all the forms of feminine where i am them and they are me. These images are created through collages with found imagery.