Aut Splash

I'm autistic, and I film the way I see the world. I want the photographs to touch your eyes the same way the world touches me through the senses - and makes me numb.

I'm autistic, and I film the way I see the world.

I'm tired of talking about intellectual abilities and concepts, I want to talk about feelings

The way I feel is always a collage of reality, and the themes of confusion and defamiliarisation are all EQUALLY important and EQUALLY incomprehensible and can only be built up by perception to understand

that's how I see the world.

I use double exposures, I shoot in the moment of strong feelings, I put a print through my body in the picture - I don't need self-portraits for it to be a self-portrait.

In the last shoot I made the portrait of the mermaid and that's how I feel. Not-quite-as-human, enchanted existence, you either talk or walk, not all at once.

I feel inundated with emotion, and simultaneously unable to join in.

Strange figures, can't catch it, what's going on, why everything is so fast and loud, can we please take turns talking

But yes, there is joy here. The physical happiness of shimmering colours, of a shining world. Sounds that make me happy - as powerful as sounds that displease.

I want you to see it.

I want the photographs to touch your eyes the same way the world touches me through the senses - and makes me numb.