Waiting For Things In A Time When You Rarely Wait For Things

Waiting For Things In A Time When You Rarely Wait For Things is a self-portraiture project documenting my pregnancy. Within my work I usually use myself to explore themes such as body image, self-esteem, self-confidence and anxiety, so it felt natural to make a series about a new phase of my life. Having never been pregnant before it has been interesting to see the changes to my body. Each photograph is accompanied by 30 hashtags that make up a diary entry that talk honestly about the experience.

The project is ongoing as I am still pregnant and working on the series.

All of the submitted images were taken in my flat in Liverpool, England.

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The Day After I Found Out (4+ weeks) #SoIAmGoingThroughMyPicturesACoupleOfMonthsAfterTryingToEditTheProjectSoFar #AndApparentlyIHaveBeenWritingHashtagsForEveryShootOnTheDayApartFromThisOne #WritingThemOnTheDayIsMuchBetterButOhWell #ILikeThatIAmWearingThisDress #NotSureIfItWasAnAccidentOrOnPurpose #ButItIsTheSameDressAsTheOneIAmWearingInMyPictureCalled #ItSeemsLikeEveryoneIsPregnantExceptMe #InMySeriesCalledUlteriorMonologue #WhichIsAboutWantingToTalkAboutWantingToBePregnantButFeelingTooAwkwardTo #TheDayBeforeWeHadGoneFoodShopping #IHadBoughtCheeseThatYouAreNotSupposedToEatIfYouArePregnant #AndTwoPregnancyTests #IBoughtTheTestsAsIMyPeriodWasLateAndIWasHopeful #ButBoughtTheCheeseAsIWasNotThatHopeful #WellActuallyIWasConfusedAsItHadStartedAndStopped #IOnlyHadATinyBitOfTheCheeseAsIWasLikeWellWhatIf #AndThenTriedToDoATest #ButForgotIWasGoingToDoOne #SoIWasJustInTheBathroomForAgesDrinkingLotsOfWaterAndWaiting #FunTimes #ThenICameOutOfTheBathroomInShockIThink #AndCalledTiagoIntoTheBathroomAsWeWereAtMyNans #HeSaidHeDidNotEvenKnowWhatWasTheResultByLookingAtTheTest #WritingThisNowIHaveABitOfABump #OnTheDayITookAPictureOfMyBellyAndToBeFairIThoughtILookedABitPregnant #ButMyBellyUsuallyLookedLikeThat #AndNowIKnowMyFoodBabiesLookABitDifferentToABabyBump #ButFoodBabiesWithABabyBumpJustLookLikeABigBabyBump #AnywaysHereIWasAbout4AndABitWeeksPregnantOrSoTheFolderTellsMe #IFindItOddTheWayTheyCalculateItAsPartOfThatIWasNotPregnant

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I Can Tell My Body Is Already Changing (6 weeks) #WellWeHadBeenTryingToGetPregnantSinceTheStartOfTheYear #WeHaveAWeddingToGoToInPortugalInJulyNextYearSoIThoughtWeShouldPauseThingsForABit #ButTiagoSaidWeWereBetterOffTrying #AndToBeFairIThoughtICouldNotGetPregnant #EvenThoughIHadABloodTestAtOvulationOnceAndTheySaidAllWasGood #SoIDecidedIWantedToBeLessStressedOutInLifeSoIStartedToMakeAnEffortToBeMoreRelaxed #WhenMyPeriodWas4DaysLateIKnowSomethingWasUp #SoIBoughtATest #AndIForgotIWasGoingToDoOneSoIHadToKeepDrinkingWaterAndEventuallyIManagedToGetAResultFromTheDamnThing #AndTheCrossCameUpPrettyQuickThen #AndIWasNotThatSurprised #IDidNotHaveMuchOfAReaction #IWasJustRelievedToKnowICouldGetPregnant #AndThenIJustGotRealStressedAboutWhatIfThingsGoWrong #IDoNotKnowHowPeopleDealtWithPregnanciesPreInternet #AnythingAndIAmCheckingIsThisNormal #AnywaysICanTellMyBodyIsAlreadyChanging #AndIHaveBeenFeelingSick #MorningSicknessIsALieItStrikesAtAnytime #ButItIsEarlyDaysForMeSoItIsNotYetThatBad #IKnowINeedToEatMoreCalciumSoIAmIndulgingInCheddarOnSandwiches #WasTryingToCutOutSugarButWasEatingChutneyAndPickleSoAmHavingMoreMarmiteThanThoseNow #AndIAmGoingOffFoods #LikeDaalOrDalOrDahlWhichWeEatAllTheTimeUsually #AndMyFavouriteLunchOfASpicyBeanBurgerWithGherkinsTomatoesAndHoumousIsNotAsGreatAsItUsedToBe #AndIHaveEatenThatWeeklyForYears #AndIMeanYEARS #AndICanNotDrinkMostOfMyLargeCollectionOfHerbalTeas #AsEverythingHasLicoriceInIt #SoItIsRooibosAndHoneybushEverydayForNowUntilIFindOtherOnes

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Morning Sickness Is Not Only A Morning Thing (6 and a half weeks) #SoTheSicknessComesAndGoes #MorningSicknessIsSuchALie #IAskedTheDoctorIfSheHadAnyTipsAfterIFirstWentWhenIFoundOut #SheSaidThatMorningSicknessIsNotOnlyAMorningThing #WellSheDidNotLie #SometimesItIsTheMorning #YesterdayICouldHaveBeenSickOverEverything #LastWeekItWasMoreAnAfternoonThing #ButSometimesItIsTheEvening #SomeoneWasTalkingAboutWarmCamelsMilkTheOtherDay #AndItWasMakingMeSoIll #ThenILookedAtMyCollectionOfSoups #AndJustReadingTheFlavoursMadeMeFeelIll #ItIsSuchAWeirdThing #IKnowThatNoOneReallyLikesToVomit #ButIReallyHateIt #IOnceProudlyCouldSayIHadNotVomitedInAtLeast10Years #AndThenMyHousemateMadeMeSuperStrongRumCocktailsWhenIWasDoingMyBA #AndThatWasGrim #AndACharmingExBoyfriendTookPolaroidsOfMeByTheToilet #EvenThoughHeWasSickMostWeekendsBecauseOfAlcohol #IDoNotKnowWhatHappenedToThosePolaroids #BetTheyShowUpIn50Years #Anyways #YesterdayIHadStrongMeatAndFishCravingsEvenThoughIHaveBeenVegetarianForOverHalfMyLife #CouldHaveEasilyEatenCodAndChipsOrATurkeyAndStuffingSandwich #ThoughIThinkTheyWouldHaveMadeMeSick #SoLastNightISettledForAVeganFishFreeBurger #ItWasProbablyTheFirstTimeIHadEatenAFishBurger #AndItWasAlrightButIWouldNotBeInARushToEatItAgain

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I Worry That People Will Think I Am Drunk Or Hungover If I Am Sick In The Street (8 Weeks) #8Weeks #ThatMeansIHaveKnownForNearly4WeeksNow #ItIsSoWeird #IThinkIAmGettingALittleLessFreakedOutNow #ThoughCrampsAndStuffOccasionallyDoMakeMeWinceAndWorry #ThenIRememberHowOftenIHaveExperiencedThem #TheSicknessThingIsAlreadyGettingOld #IHaveBeenFeelingMoreSickInTheEvenings #IDoNotMindBeingSickInTheMorningSoMuchAsIHaveNotEatenYetAndNowJustTryToDrinkWaterBeforeEightThirty #OnceIAmSickInTheMorningIFeelFineAndNowItIsBecomingWeirdlyReassuring #LikeOkayIMustStillBePregnantAsMyBodyIsDoingThatSickThing #IJustDoNotWantToGetCaughtOutAndBeSickOutsideOfOurFlat #IWorryThatPeopleWillThinkIAmDrunkOrHungoverIfIAmSickInTheStreet #BeingSickOnATrainIsMyMainWorry #IBoughtSomeProperSickBagsYesterday #ButINeedToJustCarryOneAroundWithMe #LikeAReallyCoolKid #RegisteredForTheDentistToday #TheyWereLikeDoYouPay #ISaidIUsuallyDoButIAmPregnantAtTheMoment #AtTheMomentSeemsToBeSomethingThatISayALot #IAmStillCautious #IToldOneMorePersonThisWeekThatIAmPregnant #BecauseIFeltSoSickAndWeWereGoingToMeetTiagoAndHisFriendAndIThoughtTiagosFriendWouldSayCongratsWhenHeSawMeWhichHeDid #IUnderstandTheNotTellingLotsOfPeopleButIfItIsToProtectMeThenItIsMoreAwkwardNotTalkingAboutThingsThanTalkingAboutThem #AwkwardAsInKeepingSecretsAndKeepingThoughtsBackFromPeople #TalkingToPeopleSayingThatIAmMakingWorkAboutTryingToGetPregnant #WhichIWasDoingButNowIAmPregnantSoICanNotBeTrueAboutWhatIAmWorkingOnAtTheMoment #IAmSeeingSomeFriendsNextWeekSoIAmGuessingIWillTellThemThenAsOtherwiseIMightNotSeeThemFaceToFaceAgainForAWhileAndSeeingPeoplesReactionsIsMostOfTheFun #WhenWeWereEngagedIOnlyToldPeopleFaceToFaceBeforeWeActuallyGotMarried

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Day After Haircut (8 weeks) #NotMuchToSayIThink #GotAHaircut #ItWasTooMuchHassleHavingLongHair #MyHairdresserStraightenedItAndWhatever #SoNotSureHowItWillLookWhenIHaveWashedAndBlowDriedItMyself #ProbablyALotFluffier #IWantedItLongEnoughToTieBack #ButItIsAtALengthWhereIHaveToUseStrongTiesAsOtherwiseItFallsOut #ItWillBeFine #IDoNotLikeHowJustCutHairLooksOnMe #TheEndsAreTooSharp #ButIGuessItIsAlsoBecauseItIsStraight #ButOftenIDoNotLikeHowTiagosHairLooksAfterHeHasJustHadItCut #AfterAFewDaysItSeemsBetterButAlsoMaybeIJustGetUsedToIt #FeelingABitSickNow #BoredOfThisSickBusiness #ILookPregnantHereButIAmJustBloated #AndThisIsWhyIDoNotLikeTightTops #ButISomehowDecidedToBuySomeTopsLikeThis #ToBeFairTheyWereInAPacketAndIThoughtTheyWereLooserLikeOtherOnesIHave #FunTimes #GoingToGoSoakMyFeetAsIFeelLikeTheyNeedSomeLove #ThenReadMyBookAboutTheSpiceGirls

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Bleeding Worry (9 Weeks) #SoLastNightThingsFeltABitFunny #AndIWasFeelingTooScaredToGoToTheBathroom #AfterAWhileIWentAsIWantedToBrushMyTeeth #AndThereWasBlood #NotLoadsButMoreThanIHaveBledSoFarAndAReallyIntenseColour #IWasHavingCramps #IStillHaveSomeCrampsAndWeirdFeelings #ItCouldBeAFewThings #HadABusyWeekWhichIsWhyIDecidedThatINeededToStayInAndRestLastNight #YesterdayIAccidentallyJabbedMyselfInTheStomachWithMyPhoneInMyPocket #IAteSomethingFromAJarThatWas3WeeksOutOfDate #ThatIsAwkwardToAdmitButItWasVegetablesAndIHadJustOpenedIt #IUsedALotOfMoisturiserOnMyBodyWhenIUsuallyRarelyUseAny #IFeelLikeThereWasSomethingElseButICanNotRemember #ItCouldAllBeFineButIAmExpectingTheWorst #LuckilyIHaveAnAppointmentForThisAfternoonAtTheHospital #MyLeafletSaidToCallIfIHaveAnyBleedingOrPain #AsThoughItIsNotUncommonItNeedsToBeCheckedOut #CalledTheNumberAndOption1WasEmergency #IFeltAwkwardPressing1SoIPressedForAllOtherEnquiriesAndThenShePutMeThroughToTheEmergencyLine #ItIsInAFewHoursButThisMorningIsDraggingSoMuch #IWasNotSickToday #MyBoobsAreNotSore #MyNoseDoesNotFeelFull #FeelsLikeMostOfMySymptomsHaveGone #WeCanOnlyWaitAndSee #LastNightIJustCriedInTiagosArms #InThePhotoIAmHoldingMyFolderOfNotesThatINeedToTakeToEveryAppointment #DuringTheShootItFeltLikeSomethingWasJabbingMe #IDoNotKnowWhatNormalIsSupposedToFeelLikeWhenPregnant

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Bloody Blood Tests (10 weeks) #WhatAWasteOfTime #LuckilyTiagoCouldDropMeOffAndPickMeUpOrItWouldHaveTakenUpMoreOfMyMorningThanItAlreadyDid #WeGotToTheHospitalEarlyAndDroveRoundTheWholeMultistoryCarParkAndCouldNotGetASpace #AnnoyinglyThereWereAFewCarsInFrontOfUsAndWeWatchedThemGetTheLastSpaces #InTheEndIGotOutOfTheCarAndLeftTiagoToTryToFindASpace #HeDidNotSoHeWentToAShop #ICouldNotFindTheRightBuilding #KeptLookingAtMaps #NoneOfTheSignsSaidTheBuildingINeeded #InTheEndIHadToUseGoogleMaps #IFinallyFoundIt #WaitingAroundButIDidNotSignInSoIWasHowDoTheyKnowIAmHere #WentBackToReceptionAndTheySaidToJustGoIn #StoodByTheDoorAndThePersonCameOver #WentInAndShowedHerMyFolderAndSheSaidAreYouHavingScreenings #Yes #SoWhyDidSheMakeYouComeHereAsAtYourNextScanTheyWillDoBloodTests #SheWasSoAnnoyed #ThenIWasAnnoyedAsItWasAWasteOfTimeForUsAll #LuckilyMyBloodCameOutThisTime #NotThatItWouldHaveMattered #IHadEatenAndDrankEnoughAndExercisedAndItWasNotSoEarlyInTheMorning #AnnoyedForTiagoWastingHisTimeAndForMe #LuckilyTodayWasADayForMyOwnStuffSoIJustWastedMyOwnTime #ButIHaveSoMuchThatIWantToGetDone #WasAWasteOfEveryonesTimeAndResources #IAmLuckyAsItWasFreeForMe #ButItIsWastingEveryonesMoney #SoAnnoyed #SoWillHaveBloodTakenAgainInLessThanAMonthsTime

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I Feel Like My Body Has A Big Job To Perform Now (11 weeks) #FeelingConcernedAsIHaveNotFeltSickThisEveningButIFeltSickDuringTheDay #MaybeIHaveJustEatenEnoughDinner #IWillProbablyFeelSickInAnHour #IHeardThatSourSweetsAreGoodForSickness #IFoundSomeGoodVeggieSweets #DoNotThinkTheyReallyHelpedWithTheSicknessButTheyTasteGood #Anyways #ThisTextIsSupposedToBeAboutSpots #WhenIHadTheCoilISuddenlyStartedToGetLotsOfSpotsOnMyScalp #IFiguredItWasDueToTooMuchCopperInMyDietAndInMyBody #SoMaybeIHaveBeenEatingALotOfThingsThatHaveCopperInThem #ButIDoubtIt #IGuessTheSpotsAreMoreToDoWithHormones #MyFaceFeelsSpottierTooButIThinkThatHasALotToDoWithTheWeather #AsMySkinGetsWorseThanNormalInTheWinter #ButIHaveBigSpotsOnMyHairline #INoticedThemTheOtherDayButTheySeemBiggerNow #FunTimes #MaybeINeedToWashMyHairMoreAndIHaveBeenWearingAHat #SoMaybeThatPlaysAPartInIt #CanNotBelieveIAm11WeeksNow #StillNervous #TiagoCanNotLieToSaveHisLifeSoHeToldAFewPeopleYesterday #SoTheNumberOfPeopleWhoKnowHasNowGrown #IJustFeelMorePressureNow #NoOneIsPuttingPressureOnMe #ButIFeelLikeMyBodyHasABigJobToPerformNow #AndIAmNervousThatThereIsPlentyOfTimeForThingsToGoWrong #NotFeelingSickNowIsABitWorrying #ButIThinkThatIWillGoBrushMyTeethNowAndThatWillProbablyMakeMeFeelSick

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I Definitely Have A Belly Developing, But I’m Not Sure If It Is Baby Or Food Or Both (11 and a half ish weeks) #IAmStillBeingSickInTheMorning #IAmStillFeelingSickInTheAfternoon #ISeemToNotFeelSickInTheEveningAnymore #BeingSickIsAnnoyinglyReassuringButIHaveTalkedAboutThatALotAlready #AnotherChangeIsMyBoobs #INoticedThatTheyHadGrownEarlyOn #NowTheyJustSeemNormalToMe #TheyAreWayMoreVeinyThanUsualThough #INeedToGoBraShoppingButIHateBraShoppingNormally #IJustToGetFittedButIDoNotWantTo #IHaveNeverLikedBraShoppingButIWillMakeTheEffortToGoSoon #MyNipplesAreGettingSoreAndHaveDefinitelyChangedColour #IHaveToPutBalmOnThemToTryToHelpOtherwiseTheyHurt #SomeSpotThatIHadAgesAgoAndShouldHaveSqueezedButDidNotSoItAddedABitToMyNippleHasAlsoGotBigger #ItIsSoWeird #ThatIsHowIKnowMyNipplesAreDifferent #ItLooksLikeIHaveAnotherNippleGrowingOnMyNipple #MaybeIShouldGetItCheckedOut #IHaveTwoMolesOnOneNippleAndItLooksLikeIUsedToHaveAPiercing #NeverNoticedThatBefore #IGuessIHaveNotPhotographedMyNipplesSoIntimatelyBefore #IDoNotKnowIfIWillShowThesePixButIGuessIWillAsIThinkSomeOfThemAreQuiteNice #IDefinitelyHaveABellyDeveloping #NotSureIfItIsBabyOrFoodOrABitOfBoth #YouAreNotSupposedToEatMoreButItIsWinterSoIUsuallyEatMoreAndIfIFeelHungryThenIFeelSickSoIAmEatingMore #IBoughtSomeVeganSourSweetsToSeeIfTheyHelpWithMorningSicknessAndIDoNotKnowButTheyAreSuperTasty #OtherThanThatIAmTryingToEatMoreHealthyFoodOrHealthierVersionsOfThingsLikeBakedCrisps #ILoveThatDifferentSitesSayDifferentThingsAboutTheSizeOfTheFetusNow #11WeeksIsALargeStrawberryAnApricotOrABrusselSprout

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It Still Feels Like Pregnancy Is Something That Happens To Other People And Not Me (12 weeks) #IAmNotReallyAlludingToAnythingInThisPictureByWearingATopSayingNobodysPerfect #TheseAreTiagosPJsThatHisMumGotHimForChristmasAFewYearsAgo #AndIKeepMeaningToTakeAPictureInThem #IWasLookingForWhatToWearInThePicturesTodayWhenISawThem #AndIThoughtIShouldTakeAPictureInThemWhilstICanStillFit #AsMeAndTiagoAreAboutTheSameSizeUsually #IAmWearingHisSandalsAlso #MyBottomHalfIsJustABitBiggerThanHisSoHisJeansAreABitTightOnMe #HeWearsMyClothesTooButIWearHisMore #NobodysPerfectIsTrueThough #WeAreWaitingForAPizzaDelivery #ThisWillBeMyThirdTimeEatingPizzaIn6Days #ToBeFairIReallyWantToEatASaladWithThePizza #ButTheWeatherIsCrapSoIMightJustSliceSomeFruitAndEatItWithItAsWell #TiagoEatsBananaAndCheeseTogetherAllTheTime #ISawSomeoneOnTheTVEatingMustardAndBananaTogetherAtTheWeekend #NextWeekIWillFindOutMyNewDueDate #ButGoingOffWhatTheHospitalSaidLastTimeIAmNow12Weeks #AllMyFacebookAdsAreBabvRelatedNow #IWasReadingSomethingEarlierAboutGettingBabiesToSleepAndISuddenlyWorriedThatIWillBeARubbishMother #IWillTryMyBestOfCourse #IThinkTiagoWillBeAGoodDadWhichMakesMeFeelBetter #ButYeahNobodyIsPerfect #IThinkNoMatterHowYouRaiseYourKidTheyWillHaveProblemsOfSomeSort #YouJustHaveToDoYourBestAndDoWhatYouCan #Reaching12WeeksItFeelsABitMoreRealNow #NotSureIfItIsMoreFoodThanBabyButThereIsDefinitelyABumpForming #ItStillFeelsLikePregnancyIsSomethingThatHappensToOtherPeopleAndNotMe #IAmTryingToBeMoreOptimisticButIAmStillExpectingSomethingBadToHappen #IGuessThatIAmOnlyUsedToMenstrualCrampsSoTheseNewCrampsScareMe

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I Wore This Jumper As I Thought It Might Go Well With My Dark Eye Bags (12 weeks) #MyFaceFeltDrySoIWentToCleanseItAndINoticedHowDarkMyEyeBagsWere #MySisterAskedMeIHadWoreHerXmasPresentWhichWasAGreyJumperYetSoIThoughtItWouldGoWellWithMyEyeBags #ButIThinkTheyLookedWorseWhenIWasInADarkRoom #IWasPlanningOnHavingALieInThisMorningButTiagoLeftAndIRealisedThatHeHadNotSaidAnythingAboutPolitics #SoIKnewItWasBadNewsAndThenIGotSuckedIntoSocialMediaAndTheNews #IThinkMyBodyWentIntoShockAsIWasSick3HoursLaterThanUsual #AndEvenThenItWasMeJustMakingSureBeforeIAteAnything #LastNightWasTheOfficeXmasParty #IWasExcitedAboutOrderingAnAlcoholFreeGinAndTonic #ButThePlaceHadSoldOutSoTheySaidTheyWouldMakeMeAGinFreeMocktailInstead #ADifferentGuyBroughtTheDrinksOutAndIFeltLikeHeJustShoutedAlcoholFreeVersion #IGotAFewLooksButNoOneSeemedToCare #ThoughSomeoneElseAskedIfIHadAnyKidsYetAsTheyHadNotSeenMeInAWhile #IShouldHaveJustRolledMyEyesButInsteadIWasDumbAndSaidYouWish #IThinkMyCheeksWentRedOnAFewOccasions #DinnerWasSoFillingThatIThoughtIWouldBurst #MyPocketsWereFullOfSnacksThatWereNotNeeded #JustInCaseIFeltABitSick #ThoughIDidHaveAFewMintsWhenIWasFeelingHungryAtTheBeginning #IAmJustFeelingTiredAndICouldEasilyHaveANapNowButIHaveGotLotsOfStuffToDo #FunTimes #FeelingLikeIGotIgnoredForAPhotoJobAsISaidIWasPregnant #IThoughtItWasSafeToSaySoAsTheBriefMentionedPregnancy #MaybeTheyAreJustBusyButTheySaidTheyWouldCallMeTheOtherDayAndTheyDidNot #ItMayHaveBeenForOtherReasons #ButIWouldRatherPeopleJustTellMeThatTheyDoNotWantMeRatherThanGoSilent #IDoNotGetManyOpportunitiesForThingsAndIWorryThatHavingAChildWillMakeThemEvenLessFrequent #IDoNotUnderstandHowPeopleCanMakeALivingFromTheirWork #WellIDoButIThinkIDoNotHaveTheRightPersonalityForIt #MaybeHavingAKidWillMakeMeCareLessAndJustFightForMyselfMore

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Resting, Taking Vitamins, Staying Hydrated, Eating Fruit & Veg (13 weeks) #IHaveBeenIllFor5DaysNow #IThinkItIsDueToTryingToDoTooMuch #AndBeingAroundPeopleWhoWereIllLastWeek #TiagoToldMeTheOtherDayForBeingAroundIllPeople #IKnewIWasGoingToGetIllAtSomePoint #IGetIllOnceInAWhile #AndApparentlyWhenYouArePregnantYourImmuneSystemIsLower #HeWasIllTheOtherWeekAndIDidNotGetIt #ButItProbablyWeakenedMyDefences #HeSaidHeFindsItFrustratingAsHeHasNoControlOverThePregnancy #WhichIUnderstand #ButIKnowIAmLuckyAsIDoNotHaveAFullTimeJob #AndSomePeopleWorkFullTimeOnTheirFeetTheWholeTime #SoIGetToRestMoreThanMost #ItIsFrustratingForMeAsICanNotDoAsMuchAsIUsedTo #OrMaybeThatIsBecauseIAmIllRightNow #ThoughIFeltLikeIWasBeingMoreProductiveBefore #AnywaysWeAreBothWorriedAboutHowMeBeingIllWillAffectTheBaby #ButIfBadThingsHappenedWheneverAnyonePregnantHadAColdThenHumansWouldBeExtinctByNowSurely #IAmDoingTheBestICanToGetBetter #RestingTakingVitaminsStayingHydratedEatingFruitAndVegEtc #IHaveAScanTomorrowSoThatIsComfortingForUsBothAnyways #IAmABitNervous #IHaveDaydreamsOfThemTurningAroundToSayItIsBadNews #ButINeedToRelaxAndJustRestABitMore #TheMostAnnoyingThingAboutBeingIllIsHavingBrokenSleepDuringTheNight #ButIGuessThatIsGoodPracticeForHavingANewborn #MyHairIsGreasyInThePictureAsIHadNotWashedItForAWeek #IWashedItStraightAfterBecauseOfThisScanTomorrow #GoingToBackupThisShootThenHaveALieDown

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Maternity Pillow (16 weeks) #SoIGotThePillowAWeekAgo #IKnowItIsStillEarlyDaysInMyPregnancy #SayingMyPregnancyIsWeird #ButIFeltLikeINeededOne #AndIThoughtTheSoonerIBuyItTheMoreValueIWillGetOutOfIt #IAmStartingToGetHipPainNow #AndIStretchInTheMorningAndEveningAndUsuallyABitDuringTheDay #ButItHelpsWhenISleep #IAlsoHaveAnOverwhelmingUrgeToCuddleSomethingInMySleep #SoItAlsoHelpsWithThat #TheOnlyBadThingsIsThatItTakesUpALotOfTheBed #WellItTakesUpMyHalfButTiagoProbablyFindsItAnnoying #ButHeIsPuttingUpWithItBlessHim #SomeReviewersSaidTheirPartnerSleepsInAnotherRoomSoTheyHavePlentyOfRoomForTheirCushion #ItIsNotThatBadButWhenTiagoGetsOutOfBedIDoPushItOverABitMoreAndTakeUpMoreSpace #IProbablyDidNotNeedSuchABigUShapedOne #ButMaybeItWillBeMoreUsefulLaterOn #IThinkIWasDoingTooMuchMovingAroundDuringThisShoot #IAchedABitAfter #StrainingToSeeTheResultsOnMyScreenAndThingsLikeThat #ThenIHadADeliveryCome #ThatParticularDeliveryCompanyDoNotLikeComingUpstairsAnymore #SoIHadToLugBoxThatWasNotThatHeavyButTooHeavyForMeRightNowIAmSure #AndIAchedABitAfterwards #IWasGoingToComplainButIDoNotWantTheDriverToGetIntoTrouble #IKnowHisPayIsNotGreatAndTheyAskMeToComeDownstairsSoThatTheyCanGetOnWithOtherDeliveries #ButIThoughtHeWasComingUpstairsSoIWaitedForAges #ThenIWentDownstairsAndHeWasJustLeaningAgainstTheWallChilling #SoNoTimeWasSavedInTheEnd #OhWellIMightJustRelaxWithMyPillowUntilTheAchesPass #ButIThinkAchesAreHereToStayForALongTimeAndWillProbablyGetWorseAsMyBodyGetsPushedAndStretchedMore

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It Is Hard To Believe That Someone Is Growing Inside Of Me (16 and a half weeks) #TimeIsFlyingBy #IHadMy16WeekAppointmentTodayWithAMidwife #SheJustTookMyBloodPressureAndCheckedMyUrineForProtein #FunTimes #OneOfMyFavouriteThingsAboutPregnancyIsWhenIThinkIAmWettingMyself #ButItIsJustMyBodyCleaningOutOldCellsAndStuff #SuperFunTimes #IHadAnotherWeirdedOutPhaseYesterday #LikeThereIsASmallHumanInsideOfMe #ASmallHumanThatLooksLikeAMixOfTiagoAndMe #ThatIsSoWeird #IMentionedToTheMidwifeThatIAmAtAWeirdStageWhereItIsAnother4WeeksUntilIHaveAScan #SheSaysIProbablyWillNotProperlyBeAbleToFeelItMovingForAnother4To8Weeks #SoIAmLikeHowDoIKnowThatIsAllIsWell #SheSaidSheKeptBelievingThatThereWasNotABabyInsideOfHerWhichICompletelyUnderstand #YesterdayAtWorkThereWereAFewCommentsAboutMyBumpBeingVisible #SomeoneSaidYouLookSoPregnantToday #ToBeFairIWasWearingATightFittingTop #AndOnceIStartEatingTheBumpJustGrows #ItIsFunnyAsBeforeIWasPregnantIWouldHaveFeltAwkwardAboutWearingSuchATightFittingTop #ButBeingPregnantIDoNotMindSoMuchAsBumpsArePositive #AndWeWereDiscussingThisInTheOffice #AsPregnancyBumpsHaveALotOfPositivityAroundThem #ButAsSoonAsTheBabyIsOutThereIsALotOfPressureToLoseIt #IFeelAwkwardTakingAPictureInMyUnderwear #ThePantsAreTheSameOnesAsIWoreForMyYourMindAndBodyProjectIn2012 #IDoNotWearThemOftenAndToBeFairIProbablyWillNotBeAbleToWearThemAgainForAWhile #ObviouslyIHaveTakenPicturesOfMyselfNakedInThePastButIThinkIAmMoreAwareOfWhereTheyMightEndUpAndHowPeopleReactToThem #APictureOfSomeoneInTheirUnderwearIsUsuallyAssociatedWithSexinessWhichMakesMeFeelAwkwardAsIDoNotConsiderAnyOfMyWorkToBeSexy #ButIWantToDocumentMyChangingBodyAndMyFeedIsUsuallyFilledWithPicturesOfPeopleInTheirBikinisOnTheirHolidays

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Whooping Cough Vaccine (17 weeks) #AtMyMidwifeAppointmentTheOtherDaySheSaidToGetTheWhoopingCoughVaccine #YouHaveToBe16WeeksOrMoreAndIWasJustOver16WeeksSoIBookedAnAppointment #IGoToTheAppointmentTodayAndAsWeAreWalkingToTheRoomTheWomanLooksAtMyBumpAndSaysNeverNeverNever #WeSitDownAndSheIsLikeSoYouAreHereForTheWhoopingCoughVaccine #AreYouPregnant #YouHaveToBe16WeeksOrMore #ISayIAm17Weeks #SheLooksAtMeSuspiciouslyAsIGazeDownAtMyBump #IStandUpAndPullMyTopInTightSoItAppears #SheSaysWellIGuessYouKnowBetterYourself #AndThereWasMeWorryingThatMyBumpWasTooBigForBeing17Weeks #SoSheGaveMeItAndItWasAllDoneInSeconds #IWasWaitingToDoAShootUntilAfterwardsAsIThoughtIWouldHaveAPlasterButIDidNot #WhichIsFineAsIDidNotNeedOne #ISaidIWouldDoAShootTodayWhereIWouldHaveATopOnAndIWouldFaceTheOtherDirection #ButTheVaccineWasAtTheTopOfMyLeftArmSoItMadeSenseToDoItThisWay #IGotHomeAndWasSoTiredThatIThoughtIWouldHaveANapFirst #ISleptFor3Hours #IHaveBeenFeelingMoreEnergeticButThisWeekWasSuperBusyAndIDidNotSleepInAsLateAsIPlanned #IAmStillFeelingAnxiousAboutThingsAboutTheHealthOfTheBaby #ButIAlsoRealisedTheOtherDayThatThisCouldBeTheOnlyTimeIAmEverPregnantInMyLife #SoIShouldTryToEnjoyItAsMuchAsICan #IDoNotKnowHowToReallyEnjoyItInTermsOfThereIsNotMuchICanDo #ButIGuessIMeanMoreJustTryingNotToWorrySoMuch #IGotReallyFreakedOutByTheFactThatThereIsSomeoneGrowingInsideMeAgainTheOtherDay #PeopleAskMeIfIAmScaredOfGivingBirth #IFeelKindOfExcitedByTheIdeaToBeHonest #MaybeIMightChangeMyMindAsMyBumpGetsBigger #ButIJustWantToEnjoyItAsMuchAsICanAsItSeemsLikeSuchABizarreThingThatWomenHaveBeenDoingForThousandsOfYears #IDidNotStretchLastNightAndMyHipsHurtAllNight

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Goodbye (For Now) Food Aversions (17 and a half weeks) #IJustHadToRearrangeMy20WeekScanForASecondTime #TheySendYouALetterForAnAppointmentInThePost #ThenICalledUpToRescheduleItAsICouldNotMakeIt #UsuallyTheyCheckToSeeWhatDateAndTimeICanDo #ButThisTimeTheySaidTheDiariesWereNotOpenYetSoIWouldHaveToBeOnAWaitingList #GotANewAppointmentDateAndTimeTodayWhichTiagoCouldNotDo #ICouldHaveGoneAloneButTheHospitalIsQuiteFarAwayAndIThinkTiagoWantsToSeeTheBabyAsMuchAsIDo #ThoughItIsAScanForAbnormalitiesWhichIsABitScary #SoIWouldRatherThatTiagoIsThereTooJustIncaseItIsBadNews #FingersCrossed #InMorePleasantNewsALotOfMyFoodAversionsHaveDisappeared #IHaveEatenIndianFood5TimesInTheLastWeek #TiagoIsHappyAsHeCanCookALotOfHisUsualDishesAgain #AndWeHadTakeawayFromOurFavouriteIndianPlaceLastWeekWhichGaveMe3Meals #ItIsNiceToNotSitAtDinnerFeelingSickAndStrugglingToEat #IAmAwareItMayReturnAtSomePointSoIAmJustTryingToEnjoyItWhilstICan #TheMidwifeSaidIShouldBeEatingMorePulsesAndThingsLikeThat #SoIAmGladThatLentilsAndChickpeasNoLongerRepulseMe #IAmWearingOneOfMyFewPiecesOfMaternityClothing #ItIsACardiganForPregnancyAndNursing #ItMakesMeLookMorePregnant #ApparentlyYouCanWearItInAFewDifferentWays #WillProbablyBeHotToWearOnceTheBabyIsBornButItWillDoForNowAndForNextWinter #ItDoesGetColdInLiverpool #IDoNotWantToMakeAnyPurchasesForTheBabyUntilIAm6Months #ButINeedToStartMakingASpreadsheetWithWhatWeWantToBuy #IAmStillWorriedThatThingsMightGoWrongButIAmAlsoFeelingABitMoreRelaxed #ItIsNiceToBeAbleToTalkAboutBeingPregnantWithMorePeopleWhenISeePeopleInPerson #ItIsBecomingMoreObviousNowWithMyGrowingBumpButIWorryAboutBoringPeopleWithTalkingAboutItALot #IHadToDoAFullYogaVideoLastNightAsINeededAGoodStretchAndIDefinitelyFeltBetter

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There Is Only So Much Longer That I Can Hide My Bump In My Dance Videos (18 weeks). #DefinitelyFeelingMorePregnant #BumpIsDefinitelyGrowing #IThinkARandomWomanWasStaringAtMyBumpTheOtherDayAtTheTrainStation #MorePeopleKnowNowButIUsuallyJustTellPeopleInPerson #OrIfTheyMessageMeAndIKnowIWillNotSeeThemUntilAfterIAnnounceIt #AsThereIsOnlySoMuchLongerThatICanHideMyBumpWithAJumperInMyDanceVideos #AndIWantToStartPostingThisProject #InPersonIUsuallyTryToTellPeopleInAnUnexpectedWay #LikeIDoNotSayIHaveSomethingToTellYouOrIHaveNews #SomeoneAskedHowTiagoIsAndISaidHeIsExcitedToBeAFather #SomeoneAskedIfTiagoWasMyHusbandTheOtherDayAndISaidYesAndMyBabyDaddy #SomeoneAskedIfAnyoneWasIllAndISaidIAmPregnantIfThatCounts #GenerallyPeopleAskingHowIAmIWillSayPregnant #ThoughTheOtherDayIHadJustEatenAndISaidIHadBeenTellingEveryoneThatIAmPregnant #SheLaughedAndThenAskedIfIWas #IAmSeeingAFriendTomorrowAndIMightJustSeeIfSheNoticesMyBump #SeeingTheLookOnPeoplesFacesIsHalfOfTheFun #IfNotMostOfTheFun #IAmHappyThatBrushingMyTeethHasBecomeLessOfATask #ICanActuallyBrushMyTeethMultipleTimesADayWithLessWorryNow #IHaveASoreThroatAtTheMoment #SoIDidASaltGargleThisMorning #IMadeItTooSaltyAsIWasThenSick #IHaveBeenPhotographingMyselfEverytimeIHaveBeenSickWhilstPregnant #ButIKnewThisWasMyOwnFaultSoIDidNot #ThatWasACoupleOfHoursAgoAndMyStomachFeelsABitUneasyStill #IHaveBeenUpSince5SomethingAsTiagoHadATrainToCatchAndIHaveFinallyGotIntoWatchingTheCircle #IKnowIWillRegretItLater #ParticularlyAsIHaveMyOwnTrainToCatchAndPlansForTonight #AndIAmNotFeelingVeryWellSoProbablyHaveMadeThingsWorseByNotGoingBackToSleep

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My Portuguese-British Family and Me (19 weeks) #SoBrexitFinallyHappened #IFeelComfortedKnowingThatTiagoHasBritishCitizenship #ThoughIAmJealousOfHimStillBeingAnEUCitizen #HopefullyOurChildWillBeAbleToHaveBoth #SoIDoNotNeedToWorryAboutThem #IJustHopeThatOneDayICanBeAnEUCitizenAgainOneDay #IWillProbablyNeverGetOverBrexit #IWasSatFumingAllDayOnTheDayItFinallyHappened #PeopleOnTheNewsDoNotSeemAbleToGiveAGoodEnoughReasonStill #AndItHasBeen3AndAHalfYears #WeWereInPortugalWhenTheResultsCameOut #AndItWasTheGreyestDayOfOurTrip #WeSpentAgesGettingToABeach #AndTheWeatherWasJustTerrible #WhichReflectedOurMood #TheOnlyGoodThingAboutBrexitIsThatItStoppedUsGettingTrappedInZone5OfLondon #WeThoughtAboutDidWeReallyWantToSpendOurLivesThere #WeDecidedNo #SoWeStayedInZone2AndThenTiagosJobRoleChangedAfterAWhile #IDidNotSeeMyselfLeavingLondonForAnywhereElseInTheUK #ButThenOneDayWhenIKnewMyWatfordProjectWasNearlyDoneISaidIfYouWantToMoveUpNorthForYourJobThenIAmReadyNowAndWeLeftWithin5Weeks #AndNowWeLiveInLiverpool #SoIAmGladThatWeDidNotCommitToZone5InTheEnd #YesWeAreWearingTheSameTop #MyMumBoughtMeOneAndIBoughtAnother #ButTiagoWearsOneAsTheyAreNiceAndWarm #AndItIsColdUpHereInLiverpool #ItIsAwkwardWhenWeGoOutWithJumpersOnAndRealiseWeHaveTheSameTopOnUnderneath #SoOneOfUsHasToBoilInAJumperSoWeDoNotLookSilly #BlessTiagoBecauseItIsUsuallyHimBoilingInTheJumperAsWeDoNotWantToOverheatTheBaby

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Have I Mentioned That Pregnancy Is So Weird? (21 weeks) #FinallyGotTheScreeningResults #TheScanPersonSaidToSpeakToMyMidwifeButTheMidwifeSaidToPhoneTheHospital #PhonedTheHospitalAndGotPassedAround #ButGotAPhoneCallBackWhichSaidIWasLowRiskForTheThreeSyndromes #IAmJustGladThatTheyDidNotLoseTheBloodSampleOrResults #AsIDoNotWantAnotherUnnecessaryBloodTest #TheLetterGotLostInThePostSoTheyAreSendingAnotherOne #ItIsReassuringToFeelTheBabyMovingAboutIt #ThoughItAlsoWorriesMeWhenIFeelNothing #INoticeTheMovementsMoreWhenIAmSatDownDrinkingWaterAndNotStressing #IThinkItDidNotReactToMyStarJumpsTheOtherDayAsItIsUsedToBeExercisingAndDancingAbout #ButItIsWeirdWhenYouFeelTheMovements #ThatThereIsALittleSomeonePawingInsideYou #HaveIMentionedThatPregnancyIsSoWeird #IKnowIHaveSaidItManyTimesAlready #IGetWorriedAboutThePregnancySometimesAndIExpressThis #IKnowThatPeopleAreTryingToBeReassuring #ButSomeoneTellingMeThatEverythingIsAndWillBeFineDoesNotAssureMe #YouCanBeTheHealthiestPersonInTheWorldWhateverThatMeans #ButThatDoesNotMeanThatYourBabyWillBeAbsolutelyFine #PregnancyIsNotLikeTakingATestWhereIfYouStudyYouCanDoYourBest #PregnancyIsUnpredictableAndYouCanNotControlItAndTheOutcome #IAmSureThingsWillAllBeFineButItIsGoodToBeRealistic #PeopleKnowAboutMyPregnancyNowAndIFeelAnxiousThatItIsOutInTheOpen #AsWhatIfThingsGoWrongAndIHaveToTellPeople #ButIAmQuiteHonestAboutThingsAndIAmSureIWillMakeWorkAboutThings #IJustWishIHadBeenMoreHonestAboutTryingToGetPregnantAndMadeWorkAboutIt #IMadeWorkAboutItButTheTextThatIWroteWasNotReallyAboutIt #ThisPhotoIsSimilarToAPhotoITookLastYearWhenIWasTryingToGetPregnant #IThoughtIShouldDocumentMyBodyInCaseIGotPregnantAndSoTheMainDifferenceInThisOneIsThatIHaveABump

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It Is Kind Of Nice Knowing That I Am Never Alone (21 and a half weeks) #WellIAmIllAgain #IThoughtThatMaybeICouldBeatTheColdThatIFeltComingOnButNo #ItIsNotAsBadAsTheLastTwoTimesAtLeast #ItIsJustABitAnnoying #IThinkIAmGettingUsedToMyBodyChangingNow #ICanNotReallyRememberWhatItLookedLikeBefore #WellIAmRemindedByLookingAtOldSelfPortraits #ButIGuessThisIsMyNewNormal #IThinkIWillMissHavingABump #ThoughMaybeIWillNotBeSayingThatSoonWhenItGetsMoreUncomfortable #SoMaybeIWillMissHavingA21AndAHalfWeeksBump #ItIsKindOfNiceKnowingThatIAmNeverAlone #WasEatingMyBreakfastThisMorningAndIFeltItMove #ItMadeMeImagineMyKidInACoupleOfYearsTime #WatchingMeWheneverIEatAndWantingSomeOfIt #ThisMorningItWasKindOfPawingAtMe #LikeGiveMeSomeOfYourFood #ButObviouslyIGuessItWasHavingTheNutrientsFromItOrWhatever #ItSeemsToMoveMoreWhenIAmAboutToEat #MaybeItSensesMyExcitement #OrIsJustACoincidence #WhenItMovesIFeelReassured #ThenIFeelStressedWhenItDoesNot #IThinkItHasHadTheHiccupsAFewTimes #AsTheOtherDayIThoughtItWasMovingButItHadARhythmToit #AndMyMumHasMentionedThatSheUsedToFeelMySisterHiccuping #SoWeird #ItStillBlowsMyMindThatThereIsALittleHumanInMeAndOneDayItWillComeOut #IKindOfJustWantToKeepItInMyBellyForever #ButIAlsoWantToMeetTheLittleHumanThatIHaveGrownInsideMe

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