Onwards
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Dates2018 - Ongoing
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Author
- Topics Portrait, Documentary, Archive
An exploration of the relation between my present self, my childhood self and my family through contemporary observations and found images from family albums.
I grew up in an environment where no one expressed emotions or opened up about anything.
My family didn't do it, my friends didn't do it and therefore I didn't do it.
I never developed a language for expressing my emotions. I never knew that I needed it.
Although I always felt affection in my upbringing, I never felt an intimate connection to the people around me.
In my search for this language, I was looking for a person who was suitable for imitation. But I couldn't find this person.
In my adult life I find myself trying to connect to people in a different way, a way that allows me to feel close to others.
In this project I explore the rift between the relation to my past and present self.
By merging me and my family's past and present, I try to express how I have felt.
In the effort of finding a language for this, I hope to be able to express the things that weren't possible back then.