Onwards

An exploration of the relation between my present self, my childhood self and my family through contemporary observations and found images from family albums.

I grew up in an environment where no one expressed emotions or opened up about anything.

My family didn't do it, my friends didn't do it and therefore I didn't do it.

I never developed a language for expressing my emotions. I never knew that I needed it.

Although I always felt affection in my upbringing, I never felt an intimate connection to the people around me.

In my search for this language, I was looking for a person who was suitable for imitation. But I couldn't find this person.

In my adult life I find myself trying to connect to people in a different way, a way that allows me to feel close to others.

In this project I explore the rift between the relation to my past and present self.

By merging me and my family's past and present, I try to express how I have felt.

In the effort of finding a language for this, I hope to be able to express the things that weren't possible back then.