Makom Acher

Makom Acher is the embodiment of events that lay between personal myth and reality, blended in the series of reconstructed memories and nightmares. Visual notes on depression and derealization that manifest in the physical form of a photograph.

Makom Acher, meaning another place or spiritual drifting, is an ephemeral state one floats to during tumultuous times. A sensual space filled with fragments of unspoken hopes and reality that fades away under the weight of its radicalising violence. Faced with overwhelming emotions of the daily life, derealisation becomes a form of self-stabilisation yet turns out fruitless. The place that promises so much in actuality delivers very little – an absent drift in the waters of time.  

Being diagnosed with bipolar, around half of my life is spent in depressive episodes that vary in strength and time but always bring a feeling of not quite being there. Being consciously present in the moment shifts into the category of unreachable, as stress numbs the senses I could once trust. The feelings dim into a unison mess struck by occasional waves of uncontrollable panic that run in red threads through the body.

Through photography as an anchor of physicality, I investigate overflowing anxiety that results in detachment from reality. Rooted in personal mythology, an accumulation of senses, Makom Acher becomes a dual place – where inside and outside become a reaction of each other. It is a study of visual symbols shaped by multiplicity of unnamed emotions that find their form as reconstructed scenes on the border between memories, fantasies and nightmares. Documentation becomes a method of solidifying the process of witnessing events, both real and imaginary.