Feast

But first, one more taste.

Love in life is not always as it appears. She has what she wants but she looks for again until she questions what she sought in the first place. Possibly it is a form of self sabotage to grasp her dream but remain curious about what is left to explore.

The tender experience of motherhood is a time that will never be relived after it has passed but she still asks herself, how much love do you need? Is it insatiable to live between contrasts when one side will eventually risk the other?

Those closest to her can hurt the most and love the most. She decides between creating a distance to protect herself or opening fully to receive. She will choose what she knows, the choice that makes sense. In the end, it is possible to feel completely fulfilled but never fully satisfied.

Maybe the discontentment was contrived.

© Meghan Mathews - They deserve me fully invested in us.
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They deserve me fully invested in us.

© Meghan Mathews - Am I afraid to be alone?
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Am I afraid to be alone?

© Meghan Mathews - Never may my choices hurt her I pray.
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Never may my choices hurt her I pray.

© Meghan Mathews - There is no guarantee that curiosity will give what it promises.
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There is no guarantee that curiosity will give what it promises.

© Meghan Mathews - Is it selfish to want to feel fully satisfied in love?
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Is it selfish to want to feel fully satisfied in love?

© Meghan Mathews - The companion love couldn’t withstand this.
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The companion love couldn’t withstand this.

© Meghan Mathews - I am also creating distance.
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I am also creating distance.

© Meghan Mathews - Let this be a warning to myself.
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Let this be a warning to myself.

© Meghan Mathews - The final stage is indifference.
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The final stage is indifference.

© Meghan Mathews - The promise we made when we were young.
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The promise we made when we were young.

© Meghan Mathews - Out of my reach.
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Out of my reach.

© Meghan Mathews - A gift of memories that I will never relive again.
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A gift of memories that I will never relive again.

© Meghan Mathews - It will show us soon.
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It will show us soon.

© Meghan Mathews - Walking around my house reminding myself of what I have.
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Walking around my house reminding myself of what I have.

© Meghan Mathews - "You look beautiful when you cry."
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"You look beautiful when you cry."

© Meghan Mathews - He has never wanted this and never will.
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He has never wanted this and never will.

© Meghan Mathews - Now I am full.
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Now I am full.

© Meghan Mathews - It is a training of the mind.
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It is a training of the mind.

© Meghan Mathews - He understands me until he doesn't.
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He understands me until he doesn't.

© Meghan Mathews - He says he feels closer to me than ever.
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He says he feels closer to me than ever.