Weil ich träume, bin ich nicht. (Because I dream, I am not.)

You, my lady, you, the bold melancholy that tears my flesh with a lonely cry to sacrifice it to boredom. You, who torments me in the nights when I don't know which way to go in my life. I have paid yo

Because I dream, I am not.

2021

Installation view Aargauer Kunsthaus, exhibition "Auswahl 21", 2021

Poster Blueback, ca. 136 x 198 cm

16 black and white photographs framed, ca. 14 x 27 cm

Sculpture (ca. 100 x 100 x 30 cm): wood, sound-absorbing panels, fluorescent tubes & sockets, foils, timer

Mass variable

The title of the installation is a movie quote from the film "Leolo" (1992. Jean-Claude Lauzon / Canada, France):

"Because I dream, I am not. Because I dream, I am dreaming. Because I abandon myself to my dreams at night, before the day welcomes me. Because I do not love. Because I am afraid to love. I no longer dream. I no longer dream. You, my lady, you, the bold melancholy that tears my flesh with a lonely cry to sacrifice it to boredom. You, who torments me in the nights when I don't know which way to go in my life. I have paid you my debt a hundred times over."

The film tells the story of Léo Lauzon, a 14-year-old boy who lives with his family in poor conditions in a house in Montreal. Some members of the family are mentally ill and the boy uses his imagination to escape real life and be free from fear. Leo is torn between the two worlds: the poor tenement house in Montreal that he lives in with his broken family and the imaginary world he dreams himself into. There he is Léolo Lozone, the son of a Sicilian farmer whose seed came to Canada in a tomato crate into which plopped the fat Madame Lozeau, Leo's mother. Léolo's motto is: 'I dream, therefore I am not crazy'.

He who loses his dreams loses his mind (Rolling Stones)

Neither the photographs nor the accompanying minimal sculpture refer to the film itself - but create a mood between dream and reality. Fear and hope meet here.

The photo series with its in and of itself unexciting photographs, can perhaps more than anything else in the work of huber.huber, be seen as autobiographical. Especially in the time of Corona, dreams are important. Dreams in times of uncertainty are often more intense, sometimes darker and more mystical.

A minimal sculpture on the floor complements the small-scale photo series. On a deep, gray pedestal made of pyramid foam, which absorbs sound, thus taking back our acoustics, lie three fluorescent tubes, one tube flickers. Everything is in shades of gray and black, like the darkness of night, which makes the colors of the day disappear. The glow of the fluorescent tubes is more like a twilight. A twilight between sleep and wakefulness - between dream and reality.