Sphere Dance
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Dates2017 - Ongoing
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Author
In Sphere Dance, I explore the disease multiple sclerosis from the perspective of a bearer and an artist through staged photographs and visual metaphors. I transform reality into a dreamlike space where I reinterpret my own illness.
In my work Sphere Dance, I am exploring sclerosis multiplex, my autoimmune illness that I suffer from. As a bearer of the disease and an artist, I reflect on my own physical, cognitive and emotional experience with the disease through indirect cues and visual metaphors. I work with the theme of the disease in different layers that include my personal experience with treatment, contemplating on root causes (such as ancestral prerequisites) that led to the onset of the disease, exploring physical and mental changes of my own body and of myself as a woman. Rather I use indirect means of expression through staged photographs and collages rather than documentary photography, as I deem my experience with the illness hardly transferrable. But through the imaginative visual approach, I aim to create space for the spectators’ interpretation.
I have deliberately chosen the gold color as a symbolic way to depict my illness and its manifestation. By using gold, I refer to the fact that sclerosis multiplex is, in certain sense, precious, but unwanted, literally bringing suffering, conflict and even death, as the real gold often does.
Experiencing the symptoms of my illness in daily life, I turn reality in my artwork into a dreamlike world. I also acknowledge the fragility of my own body through visualization of instability and lack of balance, as well as emotional struggles affecting relationships, work, leisure and even basic human functioning. Being aware of unfavorable prospects of the degenerative disease, existential questions also arise.