Some of these days, you'll miss me honey

“Some of these days, you’ll miss me honey” is a constellation of memories, places, feelings succeeding like a stream of consciousness where pictures develope an intimate dialogue with myself which I started writing more than 10 years ago. I needed to make this project to rewrite the first part of my life, to be able to give it a meaning, fixing broken bonds and completing a sort of catharsis.

I’ve always been a highly sensitive person and it was difficult understanding how to protect myself and what to fear because I knew I would suffer anyway. I felt almost in an everlasting Hegelian Pantragismo, where nostalgia and melancholy were my best friends. I’ve never known what was the light-heartedness of youth and that’s probably why I struggled so hard to get along with my peers at that time.

These images embrace difficult years during which I learned how to look out- side and look at myself with photography shedding any sense of guilt. There wasn’t any rational reason why I felt so estranged from my family and my hometown, but painting at first and then photographing helped me to get through that void. I didn’t know how to belong and photography was my bridge to establish a connection with my surroundings. Photography let me disappear into that framed space which I could evolve in looking for purpose.

While I shoot, everything stopped, putting my constant insecurities on hold, everything became silent, and I finally felt like I existed. Silence can be felt in these photos, like a white noise humming, which still resonates today in my work.

It is a project developed on different levels of personal and cognitive meaning. The title itself is a quotation of an author that was crucial to my growth, it is taken from a song mentioned in the last part of Sartre’s book ‘La Nausea’, a book that led me to ascribe words for the first time to what I had been experiencing for so long.

This is a work about re-appropriating familiar spaces I perceived for so long as uncanny landscapes, imprisoned in a sort of suspended time where everything seemed to remain the same for years on end. I’ve always felt moved by urban scenes without any identity, like intimate rooms with the inability to communicate one’s discomfort. I tried to depict those lonely atmospheres through the use of colour, conveying nostalgic visions and strong protagonistwho express emotions.

This project, born as an “escape”, has been transformed over time into an increasingly conscious research, mixing the meaningless noise of modernity so fascinating and disturbing at the same time with private memories and cinematic frames to rebuild my narrative.