Repossessed

Repossessed is a body of work that performs and photographs spectral lived experiences, in an attempt to confront lost-futures and challenge stuckness.

Repossessed is a body of work that performs and photographs spectral lived experiences, in an attempt to confront lost-futures and challenge stuckness. Considering my own lived experience via a hauntological lens set in place an investigation into memory and a desire to re-visit stages from my life. Re-thinking experiences and people, now invisible but ever present as spectral entities, enabled my contemplation of their impact upon the trajectory of my future. The realisation hit that ghosts had influenced my decision-making, keeping me stuck in a continuous loop of suspended time.

   Undertaking the process of Psychotherapy took me so far in understanding my experience of anxiety and depression and the impact that an un-visible father had upon my life. Further contemplation though has highlighted powerful spectres that also loomed over my transition from childhood to adulthood. An entanglement of working-class experience, patriarchal shame and neo-liberal myth. In confronting the past and present, and the hold of fear on my being, a focus has emerged to re-think multiple hauntings as a means to re-possess myself and become unstuck.

  Working with auto-ethnographic research methods, performance and photography, I am developing a re-assessment of spaces, people and cultural times. This includes the home I shared with my Mother after our first home was repossessed. The work so far is leading me to think about how there could be positive outcomes of engaging with nostalgia and Mark Fisher’s notion of time becoming jumbled up.