As She Calls Her Breath Back

After losing my mother and grandmother, this work reflects my exploration of loss, beliefs, and the pressure to let go.

"In this place where silence is her only ally, she is becoming something else. A desolate land is laying under her bare feet as she is walking to nowhere. The others around her are likewise moving aimlessly. They are not communicating or sharing emotions. Every step she is taking is an effort as if her legs are numb. The quiet breeze is touching her skin but she is not feeling it. There is no sense of time. An eternal dusk is covering the entire land, as far as her eyes can see. She doesn't know where to go nor where she is coming from."

This ongoing body of work explores the idea of the afterlife, shaped by the loss of my mother and grandmother in 2020. While the thought of an afterlife provided some comfort in my grief, it also led to deeper questions about existence and what lies beyond death. This work seeks to navigate these emotions and questions, confronting personal loss while examining the influence of Thai Buddhism and traditional beliefs on how we perceive death and its significance in the present day. In a world that urges us to move on quickly, it resists that pressure, creating space for reflection and the acknowledgement of sorrow as an essential condition of being.