Hidden Glances

  • Dates
    2021 - Ongoing
  • Author
  • Location New York, United States

Hidden Glances is a series of photographs made from vintage gay pornography calendars published when I was beginning to recognize my sexuality as a youth until I came out in 2000. Before then, I skirted mention of my sexuality by hiding behind my studies, feigning interest in girls, and making failed attempts to fit in with the rest of the boys.

Calendars chronicle and mark time. In this work, they represent the long period in my life when others assumed I was straight, or I was told that being gay was wrong. Ironically, the men in these calendars portray sexualized heterosexual archetypes that many in the gay community have appropriated. These "manly" men that society was trying to train me to become ultimately became the men I longed to look at and galvanized my true identity.

Each image is made by hand cutting a figure from his scene, layering him over another month’s image, and then re-photographing the new composition. By eliminating the presence of exposed skin in the top layer, one muscular silhouette becomes a window that both reveals and conceals to create tension between the two layers. Ultimately through the lack of depth, I am creating visual compressions of all those years when I wanted to look at other guys and could only risk taking quick glimpses because I was afraid that my gaze would linger too long and expose my homosexuality.

Whether ultimately shown as a book, or framed and hanging on a wall, the work is designed to live in a more public space that invites the viewer to connect to the idea of their own personal secrets, and experience the internal conflict and ultimate resolution that one feels once finally sharing their story.

© Michael Young - Out on the Range, January
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Out on the Range, January

© Michael Young - California Highway Patrol,
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California Highway Patrol,

© Michael Young - Leather on Leather, February
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Leather on Leather, February

© Michael Young - Reclining Cowboy, March
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Reclining Cowboy, March

© Michael Young - Boots and Benches, August
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Boots and Benches, August

© Michael Young - Black Sand Beach, July
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Black Sand Beach, July

© Michael Young - Stripes, a Tank and a Towel, June
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Stripes, a Tank and a Towel, June

© Michael Young - Hard Day at Work, September
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Hard Day at Work, September

© Michael Young - Come Sit Next to Me, June
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Come Sit Next to Me, June

© Michael Young - Poolside, May
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Poolside, May

© Michael Young - Your Shirt Doesn't Keep Me Warm, October
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Your Shirt Doesn't Keep Me Warm, October

© Michael Young - Leather Is Forever, November
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Leather Is Forever, November

© Michael Young - Sunbathing, July
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Sunbathing, July

© Michael Young - Hello Officer, April
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Hello Officer, April

© Michael Young - Behind the Backdrop, April
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Behind the Backdrop, April

© Michael Young - Pink Speedo, January
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Pink Speedo, January

© Michael Young - Peering Through Paper, June
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Peering Through Paper, June

© Michael Young - Three Guys, August
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Three Guys, August

© Michael Young - The Alps, December
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The Alps, December

© Michael Young - Crown of Bougainvillea, October
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Crown of Bougainvillea, October

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