2015 - Ongoing
This series shows portraits of my 94 year old grandma who moved to Berlin in December 2015. She first stayed with my aunt and cousin to then move to a facility for elderly people. The images which have been taken between 2015 and 2018 show her first steps in Kreuzberg, her trying to adapt to the new surrounding and her new accomodation in Charlottenburg. The repetitions in the portraits illustrate the image she likes to present to others: A version of herself, that grants her security but which isolates her, too. Her outer appearance is incredibly important to her. Having moved 4 times within the past 5 years, she had to call a variety of places her home which was especially hard for her because she's always felt a strong bound to her chosen surrounding. Whenever she had to leave her home, she reacted intensely with psychosis, immense fear and anxiety. Due to the financial situation, my aunt and mother take care of her most of the time and I try to help as far as I can. The situation has been very grueling for everyone. My grandma has been feeling very close to me, especially in the past years and I've become her confidant. I see this body of work as a seeking for traces and reflexion of my own biography and identity as well as an intimate way of approaching more universal topics such as aging (as a woman), neurodiversity, family and subliminal dynamics.