I have gone through different emotional states in this movement - anger, grief, even joy.
In the earlier days - June and July, my situation forbade me from taking part in assemblies or protests, so I tended to be more ‘objective’, believing both the police and protesters acted with excessive violence.
In August, I was no longer burdened and I started joining the demonstrations and protests. From being neutral I increasingly sympathized with their cause, until I attended every single assembly and protest. I played different roles and every time I came out, I witnessed how passionate Hongkongers were about striving for their freedoms.
What angered me the most was how the police kept lying in their press conferences. They put the blame entirely on the protesters. Even as the police abused their power and arrested unlawfully, there was nothing we could do - I felt powerless.
I remembered there was one day when localized protests blossom all over Hong Kong. I saw a youngster, who appeared in his teens, donning only a black t-shirt and a black surgical mask on the battlefield. I was saddened and worried. I couldn’t fathom what drove this child to come out and fight, while many were seemingly living in a parallel universe.
Recently two friends of mine were prosecuted for rioting. One of them was arrested during the siege of the Polytechnic University. They were really nice people, and have taken great care of me in the movement. Now even as they face imprisonment, they would still smile and comfort me. It brought tears to my eyes.
There was much to feel depressed about, but we did scored a win in the District Council Elections in November. The Hong Kong Human Rights and Democracy Act was signed into law in the US, and nations around the world are rallying to support Hong Kong in their own ways. It was a much needed confidence boost for Hongkongers.
We are certainly in for the long haul. If we go about social activism like the Japanese did, we would feel nothing but physical and psychological pain, which is why I always encourage the activists to be ‘Hong Kong pigs’ once in a while - to relax and indulge.
Finally, although one of our five demands has been met - the bill has been withdrawn, what we ask for is all five demands, not one less. We want to tell CCP’s puppets in Hong Kong that we have no fear of tyranny. We will not forget all the atrocities committed on these days - June 12, July 21, August 31, October 1 - as well as the siege of Chinese University and Polytechnic University. We will not forget all those who have given their lives to the cause.
Liberate Hong Kong, the revolution of our times.