Waiting For Things In A Time When You Rarely Wait For Things - PhMuseum

Waiting For Things In A Time When You Rarely Wait For Things

Jocelyn Allen

2019 - Ongoing

Liverpool, England, United Kingdom

Waiting For Things In A Time When You Rarely Wait For Things is a self-portraiture project documenting my pregnancy. Within my work I usually use myself to explore themes such as body image, self-esteem, self-confidence and anxiety, so it felt natural to make a series about a new phase of my life. Having never been pregnant before it has been interesting to see the changes to my body. Each photograph is accompanied by 30 hashtags that make up a diary entry that talk honestly about the experience.

The project is ongoing as I am still pregnant and working on the series.

All of the submitted images were taken in my flat in Liverpool, England.

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  • The Day After I Found Out (4+ weeks)

    #SoIAmGoingThroughMyPicturesACoupleOfMonthsAfterTryingToEditTheProjectSoFar
    #AndApparentlyIHaveBeenWritingHashtagsForEveryShootOnTheDayApartFromThisOne
    #WritingThemOnTheDayIsMuchBetterButOhWell
    #ILikeThatIAmWearingThisDress
    #NotSureIfItWasAnAccidentOrOnPurpose
    #ButItIsTheSameDressAsTheOneIAmWearingInMyPictureCalled
    #ItSeemsLikeEveryoneIsPregnantExceptMe
    #InMySeriesCalledUlteriorMonologue
    #WhichIsAboutWantingToTalkAboutWantingToBePregnantButFeelingTooAwkwardTo
    #TheDayBeforeWeHadGoneFoodShopping
    #IHadBoughtCheeseThatYouAreNotSupposedToEatIfYouArePregnant
    #AndTwoPregnancyTests
    #IBoughtTheTestsAsIMyPeriodWasLateAndIWasHopeful
    #ButBoughtTheCheeseAsIWasNotThatHopeful
    #WellActuallyIWasConfusedAsItHadStartedAndStopped
    #IOnlyHadATinyBitOfTheCheeseAsIWasLikeWellWhatIf
    #AndThenTriedToDoATest
    #ButForgotIWasGoingToDoOne
    #SoIWasJustInTheBathroomForAgesDrinkingLotsOfWaterAndWaiting
    #FunTimes
    #ThenICameOutOfTheBathroomInShockIThink
    #AndCalledTiagoIntoTheBathroomAsWeWereAtMyNans
    #HeSaidHeDidNotEvenKnowWhatWasTheResultByLookingAtTheTest
    #WritingThisNowIHaveABitOfABump
    #OnTheDayITookAPictureOfMyBellyAndToBeFairIThoughtILookedABitPregnant
    #ButMyBellyUsuallyLookedLikeThat
    #AndNowIKnowMyFoodBabiesLookABitDifferentToABabyBump
    #ButFoodBabiesWithABabyBumpJustLookLikeABigBabyBump
    #AnywaysHereIWasAbout4AndABitWeeksPregnantOrSoTheFolderTellsMe
    #IFindItOddTheWayTheyCalculateItAsPartOfThatIWasNotPregnant

  • I Can Tell My Body Is Already Changing (6 weeks)

    #WellWeHadBeenTryingToGetPregnantSinceTheStartOfTheYear
    #WeHaveAWeddingToGoToInPortugalInJulyNextYearSoIThoughtWeShouldPauseThingsForABit
    #ButTiagoSaidWeWereBetterOffTrying
    #AndToBeFairIThoughtICouldNotGetPregnant
    #EvenThoughIHadABloodTestAtOvulationOnceAndTheySaidAllWasGood
    #SoIDecidedIWantedToBeLessStressedOutInLifeSoIStartedToMakeAnEffortToBeMoreRelaxed
    #WhenMyPeriodWas4DaysLateIKnowSomethingWasUp
    #SoIBoughtATest
    #AndIForgotIWasGoingToDoOneSoIHadToKeepDrinkingWaterAndEventuallyIManagedToGetAResultFromTheDamnThing
    #AndTheCrossCameUpPrettyQuickThen
    #AndIWasNotThatSurprised
    #IDidNotHaveMuchOfAReaction
    #IWasJustRelievedToKnowICouldGetPregnant
    #AndThenIJustGotRealStressedAboutWhatIfThingsGoWrong
    #IDoNotKnowHowPeopleDealtWithPregnanciesPreInternet
    #AnythingAndIAmCheckingIsThisNormal
    #AnywaysICanTellMyBodyIsAlreadyChanging
    #AndIHaveBeenFeelingSick
    #MorningSicknessIsALieItStrikesAtAnytime
    #ButItIsEarlyDaysForMeSoItIsNotYetThatBad
    #IKnowINeedToEatMoreCalciumSoIAmIndulgingInCheddarOnSandwiches
    #WasTryingToCutOutSugarButWasEatingChutneyAndPickleSoAmHavingMoreMarmiteThanThoseNow
    #AndIAmGoingOffFoods
    #LikeDaalOrDalOrDahlWhichWeEatAllTheTimeUsually
    #AndMyFavouriteLunchOfASpicyBeanBurgerWithGherkinsTomatoesAndHoumousIsNotAsGreatAsItUsedToBe
    #AndIHaveEatenThatWeeklyForYears
    #AndIMeanYEARS
    #AndICanNotDrinkMostOfMyLargeCollectionOfHerbalTeas
    #AsEverythingHasLicoriceInIt
    #SoItIsRooibosAndHoneybushEverydayForNowUntilIFindOtherOnes

  • Morning Sickness Is Not Only A Morning Thing (6 and a half weeks)

    #SoTheSicknessComesAndGoes
    #MorningSicknessIsSuchALie
    #IAskedTheDoctorIfSheHadAnyTipsAfterIFirstWentWhenIFoundOut
    #SheSaidThatMorningSicknessIsNotOnlyAMorningThing
    #WellSheDidNotLie
    #SometimesItIsTheMorning
    #YesterdayICouldHaveBeenSickOverEverything
    #LastWeekItWasMoreAnAfternoonThing
    #ButSometimesItIsTheEvening
    #SomeoneWasTalkingAboutWarmCamelsMilkTheOtherDay
    #AndItWasMakingMeSoIll
    #ThenILookedAtMyCollectionOfSoups
    #AndJustReadingTheFlavoursMadeMeFeelIll
    #ItIsSuchAWeirdThing
    #IKnowThatNoOneReallyLikesToVomit
    #ButIReallyHateIt
    #IOnceProudlyCouldSayIHadNotVomitedInAtLeast10Years
    #AndThenMyHousemateMadeMeSuperStrongRumCocktailsWhenIWasDoingMyBA
    #AndThatWasGrim
    #AndACharmingExBoyfriendTookPolaroidsOfMeByTheToilet
    #EvenThoughHeWasSickMostWeekendsBecauseOfAlcohol
    #IDoNotKnowWhatHappenedToThosePolaroids
    #BetTheyShowUpIn50Years
    #Anyways
    #YesterdayIHadStrongMeatAndFishCravingsEvenThoughIHaveBeenVegetarianForOverHalfMyLife
    #CouldHaveEasilyEatenCodAndChipsOrATurkeyAndStuffingSandwich
    #ThoughIThinkTheyWouldHaveMadeMeSick
    #SoLastNightISettledForAVeganFishFreeBurger
    #ItWasProbablyTheFirstTimeIHadEatenAFishBurger
    #AndItWasAlrightButIWouldNotBeInARushToEatItAgain

  • I Worry That People Will Think I Am Drunk Or Hungover If I Am Sick In The Street (8 Weeks)

    #8Weeks
    #ThatMeansIHaveKnownForNearly4WeeksNow
    #ItIsSoWeird
    #IThinkIAmGettingALittleLessFreakedOutNow
    #ThoughCrampsAndStuffOccasionallyDoMakeMeWinceAndWorry
    #ThenIRememberHowOftenIHaveExperiencedThem
    #TheSicknessThingIsAlreadyGettingOld
    #IHaveBeenFeelingMoreSickInTheEvenings
    #IDoNotMindBeingSickInTheMorningSoMuchAsIHaveNotEatenYetAndNowJustTryToDrinkWaterBeforeEightThirty
    #OnceIAmSickInTheMorningIFeelFineAndNowItIsBecomingWeirdlyReassuring
    #LikeOkayIMustStillBePregnantAsMyBodyIsDoingThatSickThing
    #IJustDoNotWantToGetCaughtOutAndBeSickOutsideOfOurFlat
    #IWorryThatPeopleWillThinkIAmDrunkOrHungoverIfIAmSickInTheStreet
    #BeingSickOnATrainIsMyMainWorry
    #IBoughtSomeProperSickBagsYesterday
    #ButINeedToJustCarryOneAroundWithMe
    #LikeAReallyCoolKid
    #RegisteredForTheDentistToday
    #TheyWereLikeDoYouPay
    #ISaidIUsuallyDoButIAmPregnantAtTheMoment
    #AtTheMomentSeemsToBeSomethingThatISayALot
    #IAmStillCautious
    #IToldOneMorePersonThisWeekThatIAmPregnant
    #BecauseIFeltSoSickAndWeWereGoingToMeetTiagoAndHisFriendAndIThoughtTiagosFriendWouldSayCongratsWhenHeSawMeWhichHeDid
    #IUnderstandTheNotTellingLotsOfPeopleButIfItIsToProtectMeThenItIsMoreAwkwardNotTalkingAboutThingsThanTalkingAboutThem
    #AwkwardAsInKeepingSecretsAndKeepingThoughtsBackFromPeople
    #TalkingToPeopleSayingThatIAmMakingWorkAboutTryingToGetPregnant
    #WhichIWasDoingButNowIAmPregnantSoICanNotBeTrueAboutWhatIAmWorkingOnAtTheMoment
    #IAmSeeingSomeFriendsNextWeekSoIAmGuessingIWillTellThemThenAsOtherwiseIMightNotSeeThemFaceToFaceAgainForAWhileAndSeeingPeoplesReactionsIsMostOfTheFun
    #WhenWeWereEngagedIOnlyToldPeopleFaceToFaceBeforeWeActuallyGotMarried

  • Day After Haircut (8 weeks)

    #NotMuchToSayIThink
    #GotAHaircut
    #ItWasTooMuchHassleHavingLongHair
    #MyHairdresserStraightenedItAndWhatever
    #SoNotSureHowItWillLookWhenIHaveWashedAndBlowDriedItMyself
    #ProbablyALotFluffier
    #IWantedItLongEnoughToTieBack
    #ButItIsAtALengthWhereIHaveToUseStrongTiesAsOtherwiseItFallsOut
    #ItWillBeFine
    #IDoNotLikeHowJustCutHairLooksOnMe
    #TheEndsAreTooSharp
    #ButIGuessItIsAlsoBecauseItIsStraight
    #ButOftenIDoNotLikeHowTiagosHairLooksAfterHeHasJustHadItCut
    #AfterAFewDaysItSeemsBetterButAlsoMaybeIJustGetUsedToIt
    #FeelingABitSickNow
    #BoredOfThisSickBusiness
    #ILookPregnantHereButIAmJustBloated
    #AndThisIsWhyIDoNotLikeTightTops
    #ButISomehowDecidedToBuySomeTopsLikeThis
    #ToBeFairTheyWereInAPacketAndIThoughtTheyWereLooserLikeOtherOnesIHave
    #FunTimes
    #GoingToGoSoakMyFeetAsIFeelLikeTheyNeedSomeLove
    #ThenReadMyBookAboutTheSpiceGirls

  • Bleeding Worry (9 Weeks)

    #SoLastNightThingsFeltABitFunny
    #AndIWasFeelingTooScaredToGoToTheBathroom
    #AfterAWhileIWentAsIWantedToBrushMyTeeth
    #AndThereWasBlood
    #NotLoadsButMoreThanIHaveBledSoFarAndAReallyIntenseColour
    #IWasHavingCramps
    #IStillHaveSomeCrampsAndWeirdFeelings
    #ItCouldBeAFewThings
    #HadABusyWeekWhichIsWhyIDecidedThatINeededToStayInAndRestLastNight
    #YesterdayIAccidentallyJabbedMyselfInTheStomachWithMyPhoneInMyPocket
    #IAteSomethingFromAJarThatWas3WeeksOutOfDate
    #ThatIsAwkwardToAdmitButItWasVegetablesAndIHadJustOpenedIt
    #IUsedALotOfMoisturiserOnMyBodyWhenIUsuallyRarelyUseAny
    #IFeelLikeThereWasSomethingElseButICanNotRemember
    #ItCouldAllBeFineButIAmExpectingTheWorst
    #LuckilyIHaveAnAppointmentForThisAfternoonAtTheHospital
    #MyLeafletSaidToCallIfIHaveAnyBleedingOrPain
    #AsThoughItIsNotUncommonItNeedsToBeCheckedOut
    #CalledTheNumberAndOption1WasEmergency
    #IFeltAwkwardPressing1SoIPressedForAllOtherEnquiriesAndThenShePutMeThroughToTheEmergencyLine
    #ItIsInAFewHoursButThisMorningIsDraggingSoMuch
    #IWasNotSickToday
    #MyBoobsAreNotSore
    #MyNoseDoesNotFeelFull
    #FeelsLikeMostOfMySymptomsHaveGone
    #WeCanOnlyWaitAndSee
    #LastNightIJustCriedInTiagosArms
    #InThePhotoIAmHoldingMyFolderOfNotesThatINeedToTakeToEveryAppointment
    #DuringTheShootItFeltLikeSomethingWasJabbingMe
    #IDoNotKnowWhatNormalIsSupposedToFeelLikeWhenPregnant

  • Bloody Blood Tests (10 weeks)

    #WhatAWasteOfTime
    #LuckilyTiagoCouldDropMeOffAndPickMeUpOrItWouldHaveTakenUpMoreOfMyMorningThanItAlreadyDid
    #WeGotToTheHospitalEarlyAndDroveRoundTheWholeMultistoryCarParkAndCouldNotGetASpace
    #AnnoyinglyThereWereAFewCarsInFrontOfUsAndWeWatchedThemGetTheLastSpaces
    #InTheEndIGotOutOfTheCarAndLeftTiagoToTryToFindASpace
    #HeDidNotSoHeWentToAShop
    #ICouldNotFindTheRightBuilding
    #KeptLookingAtMaps
    #NoneOfTheSignsSaidTheBuildingINeeded
    #InTheEndIHadToUseGoogleMaps
    #IFinallyFoundIt
    #WaitingAroundButIDidNotSignInSoIWasHowDoTheyKnowIAmHere
    #WentBackToReceptionAndTheySaidToJustGoIn
    #StoodByTheDoorAndThePersonCameOver
    #WentInAndShowedHerMyFolderAndSheSaidAreYouHavingScreenings
    #Yes
    #SoWhyDidSheMakeYouComeHereAsAtYourNextScanTheyWillDoBloodTests
    #SheWasSoAnnoyed
    #ThenIWasAnnoyedAsItWasAWasteOfTimeForUsAll
    #LuckilyMyBloodCameOutThisTime
    #NotThatItWouldHaveMattered
    #IHadEatenAndDrankEnoughAndExercisedAndItWasNotSoEarlyInTheMorning
    #AnnoyedForTiagoWastingHisTimeAndForMe
    #LuckilyTodayWasADayForMyOwnStuffSoIJustWastedMyOwnTime
    #ButIHaveSoMuchThatIWantToGetDone
    #WasAWasteOfEveryonesTimeAndResources
    #IAmLuckyAsItWasFreeForMe
    #ButItIsWastingEveryonesMoney
    #SoAnnoyed
    #SoWillHaveBloodTakenAgainInLessThanAMonthsTime

  • I Feel Like My Body Has A Big Job To Perform Now (11 weeks)

    #FeelingConcernedAsIHaveNotFeltSickThisEveningButIFeltSickDuringTheDay
    #MaybeIHaveJustEatenEnoughDinner
    #IWillProbablyFeelSickInAnHour
    #IHeardThatSourSweetsAreGoodForSickness
    #IFoundSomeGoodVeggieSweets
    #DoNotThinkTheyReallyHelpedWithTheSicknessButTheyTasteGood
    #Anyways
    #ThisTextIsSupposedToBeAboutSpots
    #WhenIHadTheCoilISuddenlyStartedToGetLotsOfSpotsOnMyScalp
    #IFiguredItWasDueToTooMuchCopperInMyDietAndInMyBody
    #SoMaybeIHaveBeenEatingALotOfThingsThatHaveCopperInThem
    #ButIDoubtIt
    #IGuessTheSpotsAreMoreToDoWithHormones
    #MyFaceFeelsSpottierTooButIThinkThatHasALotToDoWithTheWeather
    #AsMySkinGetsWorseThanNormalInTheWinter
    #ButIHaveBigSpotsOnMyHairline
    #INoticedThemTheOtherDayButTheySeemBiggerNow
    #FunTimes
    #MaybeINeedToWashMyHairMoreAndIHaveBeenWearingAHat
    #SoMaybeThatPlaysAPartInIt
    #CanNotBelieveIAm11WeeksNow
    #StillNervous
    #TiagoCanNotLieToSaveHisLifeSoHeToldAFewPeopleYesterday
    #SoTheNumberOfPeopleWhoKnowHasNowGrown
    #IJustFeelMorePressureNow
    #NoOneIsPuttingPressureOnMe
    #ButIFeelLikeMyBodyHasABigJobToPerformNow
    #AndIAmNervousThatThereIsPlentyOfTimeForThingsToGoWrong
    #NotFeelingSickNowIsABitWorrying
    #ButIThinkThatIWillGoBrushMyTeethNowAndThatWillProbablyMakeMeFeelSick

  • I Definitely Have A Belly Developing, But I’m Not Sure If It Is Baby Or Food Or Both (11 and a half ish weeks)

    #IAmStillBeingSickInTheMorning
    #IAmStillFeelingSickInTheAfternoon
    #ISeemToNotFeelSickInTheEveningAnymore
    #BeingSickIsAnnoyinglyReassuringButIHaveTalkedAboutThatALotAlready
    #AnotherChangeIsMyBoobs
    #INoticedThatTheyHadGrownEarlyOn
    #NowTheyJustSeemNormalToMe
    #TheyAreWayMoreVeinyThanUsualThough
    #INeedToGoBraShoppingButIHateBraShoppingNormally
    #IJustToGetFittedButIDoNotWantTo
    #IHaveNeverLikedBraShoppingButIWillMakeTheEffortToGoSoon
    #MyNipplesAreGettingSoreAndHaveDefinitelyChangedColour
    #IHaveToPutBalmOnThemToTryToHelpOtherwiseTheyHurt
    #SomeSpotThatIHadAgesAgoAndShouldHaveSqueezedButDidNotSoItAddedABitToMyNippleHasAlsoGotBigger
    #ItIsSoWeird
    #ThatIsHowIKnowMyNipplesAreDifferent
    #ItLooksLikeIHaveAnotherNippleGrowingOnMyNipple
    #MaybeIShouldGetItCheckedOut
    #IHaveTwoMolesOnOneNippleAndItLooksLikeIUsedToHaveAPiercing
    #NeverNoticedThatBefore
    #IGuessIHaveNotPhotographedMyNipplesSoIntimatelyBefore
    #IDoNotKnowIfIWillShowThesePixButIGuessIWillAsIThinkSomeOfThemAreQuiteNice
    #IDefinitelyHaveABellyDeveloping
    #NotSureIfItIsBabyOrFoodOrABitOfBoth
    #YouAreNotSupposedToEatMoreButItIsWinterSoIUsuallyEatMoreAndIfIFeelHungryThenIFeelSickSoIAmEatingMore
    #IBoughtSomeVeganSourSweetsToSeeIfTheyHelpWithMorningSicknessAndIDoNotKnowButTheyAreSuperTasty
    #OtherThanThatIAmTryingToEatMoreHealthyFoodOrHealthierVersionsOfThingsLikeBakedCrisps
    #ILoveThatDifferentSitesSayDifferentThingsAboutTheSizeOfTheFetusNow
    #11WeeksIsALargeStrawberryAnApricotOrABrusselSprout

  • It Still Feels Like Pregnancy Is Something That Happens To Other People And Not Me (12 weeks)

    #IAmNotReallyAlludingToAnythingInThisPictureByWearingATopSayingNobodysPerfect
    #TheseAreTiagosPJsThatHisMumGotHimForChristmasAFewYearsAgo
    #AndIKeepMeaningToTakeAPictureInThem
    #IWasLookingForWhatToWearInThePicturesTodayWhenISawThem
    #AndIThoughtIShouldTakeAPictureInThemWhilstICanStillFit
    #AsMeAndTiagoAreAboutTheSameSizeUsually
    #IAmWearingHisSandalsAlso
    #MyBottomHalfIsJustABitBiggerThanHisSoHisJeansAreABitTightOnMe
    #HeWearsMyClothesTooButIWearHisMore
    #NobodysPerfectIsTrueThough
    #WeAreWaitingForAPizzaDelivery
    #ThisWillBeMyThirdTimeEatingPizzaIn6Days
    #ToBeFairIReallyWantToEatASaladWithThePizza
    #ButTheWeatherIsCrapSoIMightJustSliceSomeFruitAndEatItWithItAsWell
    #TiagoEatsBananaAndCheeseTogetherAllTheTime
    #ISawSomeoneOnTheTVEatingMustardAndBananaTogetherAtTheWeekend
    #NextWeekIWillFindOutMyNewDueDate
    #ButGoingOffWhatTheHospitalSaidLastTimeIAmNow12Weeks
    #AllMyFacebookAdsAreBabvRelatedNow
    #IWasReadingSomethingEarlierAboutGettingBabiesToSleepAndISuddenlyWorriedThatIWillBeARubbishMother
    #IWillTryMyBestOfCourse
    #IThinkTiagoWillBeAGoodDadWhichMakesMeFeelBetter
    #ButYeahNobodyIsPerfect
    #IThinkNoMatterHowYouRaiseYourKidTheyWillHaveProblemsOfSomeSort
    #YouJustHaveToDoYourBestAndDoWhatYouCan
    #Reaching12WeeksItFeelsABitMoreRealNow
    #NotSureIfItIsMoreFoodThanBabyButThereIsDefinitelyABumpForming
    #ItStillFeelsLikePregnancyIsSomethingThatHappensToOtherPeopleAndNotMe
    #IAmTryingToBeMoreOptimisticButIAmStillExpectingSomethingBadToHappen
    #IGuessThatIAmOnlyUsedToMenstrualCrampsSoTheseNewCrampsScareMe

  • I Wore This Jumper As I Thought It Might Go Well With My Dark Eye Bags (12 weeks)

    #MyFaceFeltDrySoIWentToCleanseItAndINoticedHowDarkMyEyeBagsWere
    #MySisterAskedMeIHadWoreHerXmasPresentWhichWasAGreyJumperYetSoIThoughtItWouldGoWellWithMyEyeBags
    #ButIThinkTheyLookedWorseWhenIWasInADarkRoom
    #IWasPlanningOnHavingALieInThisMorningButTiagoLeftAndIRealisedThatHeHadNotSaidAnythingAboutPolitics
    #SoIKnewItWasBadNewsAndThenIGotSuckedIntoSocialMediaAndTheNews
    #IThinkMyBodyWentIntoShockAsIWasSick3HoursLaterThanUsual
    #AndEvenThenItWasMeJustMakingSureBeforeIAteAnything
    #LastNightWasTheOfficeXmasParty
    #IWasExcitedAboutOrderingAnAlcoholFreeGinAndTonic
    #ButThePlaceHadSoldOutSoTheySaidTheyWouldMakeMeAGinFreeMocktailInstead
    #ADifferentGuyBroughtTheDrinksOutAndIFeltLikeHeJustShoutedAlcoholFreeVersion
    #IGotAFewLooksButNoOneSeemedToCare
    #ThoughSomeoneElseAskedIfIHadAnyKidsYetAsTheyHadNotSeenMeInAWhile
    #IShouldHaveJustRolledMyEyesButInsteadIWasDumbAndSaidYouWish
    #IThinkMyCheeksWentRedOnAFewOccasions
    #DinnerWasSoFillingThatIThoughtIWouldBurst
    #MyPocketsWereFullOfSnacksThatWereNotNeeded
    #JustInCaseIFeltABitSick
    #ThoughIDidHaveAFewMintsWhenIWasFeelingHungryAtTheBeginning
    #IAmJustFeelingTiredAndICouldEasilyHaveANapNowButIHaveGotLotsOfStuffToDo
    #FunTimes
    #FeelingLikeIGotIgnoredForAPhotoJobAsISaidIWasPregnant
    #IThoughtItWasSafeToSaySoAsTheBriefMentionedPregnancy
    #MaybeTheyAreJustBusyButTheySaidTheyWouldCallMeTheOtherDayAndTheyDidNot
    #ItMayHaveBeenForOtherReasons
    #ButIWouldRatherPeopleJustTellMeThatTheyDoNotWantMeRatherThanGoSilent
    #IDoNotGetManyOpportunitiesForThingsAndIWorryThatHavingAChildWillMakeThemEvenLessFrequent
    #IDoNotUnderstandHowPeopleCanMakeALivingFromTheirWork
    #WellIDoButIThinkIDoNotHaveTheRightPersonalityForIt
    #MaybeHavingAKidWillMakeMeCareLessAndJustFightForMyselfMore

  • Resting, Taking Vitamins, Staying Hydrated, Eating Fruit & Veg (13 weeks)

    #IHaveBeenIllFor5DaysNow
    #IThinkItIsDueToTryingToDoTooMuch
    #AndBeingAroundPeopleWhoWereIllLastWeek
    #TiagoToldMeTheOtherDayForBeingAroundIllPeople
    #IKnewIWasGoingToGetIllAtSomePoint
    #IGetIllOnceInAWhile
    #AndApparentlyWhenYouArePregnantYourImmuneSystemIsLower
    #HeWasIllTheOtherWeekAndIDidNotGetIt
    #ButItProbablyWeakenedMyDefences
    #HeSaidHeFindsItFrustratingAsHeHasNoControlOverThePregnancy
    #WhichIUnderstand
    #ButIKnowIAmLuckyAsIDoNotHaveAFullTimeJob
    #AndSomePeopleWorkFullTimeOnTheirFeetTheWholeTime
    #SoIGetToRestMoreThanMost
    #ItIsFrustratingForMeAsICanNotDoAsMuchAsIUsedTo
    #OrMaybeThatIsBecauseIAmIllRightNow
    #ThoughIFeltLikeIWasBeingMoreProductiveBefore
    #AnywaysWeAreBothWorriedAboutHowMeBeingIllWillAffectTheBaby
    #ButIfBadThingsHappenedWheneverAnyonePregnantHadAColdThenHumansWouldBeExtinctByNowSurely
    #IAmDoingTheBestICanToGetBetter
    #RestingTakingVitaminsStayingHydratedEatingFruitAndVegEtc
    #IHaveAScanTomorrowSoThatIsComfortingForUsBothAnyways
    #IAmABitNervous
    #IHaveDaydreamsOfThemTurningAroundToSayItIsBadNews
    #ButINeedToRelaxAndJustRestABitMore
    #TheMostAnnoyingThingAboutBeingIllIsHavingBrokenSleepDuringTheNight
    #ButIGuessThatIsGoodPracticeForHavingANewborn
    #MyHairIsGreasyInThePictureAsIHadNotWashedItForAWeek
    #IWashedItStraightAfterBecauseOfThisScanTomorrow
    #GoingToBackupThisShootThenHaveALieDown

  • Maternity Pillow (16 weeks)

    #SoIGotThePillowAWeekAgo
    #IKnowItIsStillEarlyDaysInMyPregnancy
    #SayingMyPregnancyIsWeird
    #ButIFeltLikeINeededOne
    #AndIThoughtTheSoonerIBuyItTheMoreValueIWillGetOutOfIt
    #IAmStartingToGetHipPainNow
    #AndIStretchInTheMorningAndEveningAndUsuallyABitDuringTheDay
    #ButItHelpsWhenISleep
    #IAlsoHaveAnOverwhelmingUrgeToCuddleSomethingInMySleep
    #SoItAlsoHelpsWithThat
    #TheOnlyBadThingsIsThatItTakesUpALotOfTheBed
    #WellItTakesUpMyHalfButTiagoProbablyFindsItAnnoying
    #ButHeIsPuttingUpWithItBlessHim
    #SomeReviewersSaidTheirPartnerSleepsInAnotherRoomSoTheyHavePlentyOfRoomForTheirCushion
    #ItIsNotThatBadButWhenTiagoGetsOutOfBedIDoPushItOverABitMoreAndTakeUpMoreSpace
    #IProbablyDidNotNeedSuchABigUShapedOne
    #ButMaybeItWillBeMoreUsefulLaterOn
    #IThinkIWasDoingTooMuchMovingAroundDuringThisShoot
    #IAchedABitAfter
    #StrainingToSeeTheResultsOnMyScreenAndThingsLikeThat
    #ThenIHadADeliveryCome
    #ThatParticularDeliveryCompanyDoNotLikeComingUpstairsAnymore
    #SoIHadToLugBoxThatWasNotThatHeavyButTooHeavyForMeRightNowIAmSure
    #AndIAchedABitAfterwards
    #IWasGoingToComplainButIDoNotWantTheDriverToGetIntoTrouble
    #IKnowHisPayIsNotGreatAndTheyAskMeToComeDownstairsSoThatTheyCanGetOnWithOtherDeliveries
    #ButIThoughtHeWasComingUpstairsSoIWaitedForAges
    #ThenIWentDownstairsAndHeWasJustLeaningAgainstTheWallChilling
    #SoNoTimeWasSavedInTheEnd
    #OhWellIMightJustRelaxWithMyPillowUntilTheAchesPass
    #ButIThinkAchesAreHereToStayForALongTimeAndWillProbablyGetWorseAsMyBodyGetsPushedAndStretchedMore

  • It Is Hard To Believe That Someone Is Growing Inside Of Me (16 and a half weeks)

    #TimeIsFlyingBy
    #IHadMy16WeekAppointmentTodayWithAMidwife
    #SheJustTookMyBloodPressureAndCheckedMyUrineForProtein
    #FunTimes
    #OneOfMyFavouriteThingsAboutPregnancyIsWhenIThinkIAmWettingMyself
    #ButItIsJustMyBodyCleaningOutOldCellsAndStuff
    #SuperFunTimes
    #IHadAnotherWeirdedOutPhaseYesterday
    #LikeThereIsASmallHumanInsideOfMe
    #ASmallHumanThatLooksLikeAMixOfTiagoAndMe
    #ThatIsSoWeird
    #IMentionedToTheMidwifeThatIAmAtAWeirdStageWhereItIsAnother4WeeksUntilIHaveAScan
    #SheSaysIProbablyWillNotProperlyBeAbleToFeelItMovingForAnother4To8Weeks
    #SoIAmLikeHowDoIKnowThatIsAllIsWell
    #SheSaidSheKeptBelievingThatThereWasNotABabyInsideOfHerWhichICompletelyUnderstand
    #YesterdayAtWorkThereWereAFewCommentsAboutMyBumpBeingVisible
    #SomeoneSaidYouLookSoPregnantToday
    #ToBeFairIWasWearingATightFittingTop
    #AndOnceIStartEatingTheBumpJustGrows
    #ItIsFunnyAsBeforeIWasPregnantIWouldHaveFeltAwkwardAboutWearingSuchATightFittingTop
    #ButBeingPregnantIDoNotMindSoMuchAsBumpsArePositive
    #AndWeWereDiscussingThisInTheOffice
    #AsPregnancyBumpsHaveALotOfPositivityAroundThem
    #ButAsSoonAsTheBabyIsOutThereIsALotOfPressureToLoseIt
    #IFeelAwkwardTakingAPictureInMyUnderwear
    #ThePantsAreTheSameOnesAsIWoreForMyYourMindAndBodyProjectIn2012
    #IDoNotWearThemOftenAndToBeFairIProbablyWillNotBeAbleToWearThemAgainForAWhile
    #ObviouslyIHaveTakenPicturesOfMyselfNakedInThePastButIThinkIAmMoreAwareOfWhereTheyMightEndUpAndHowPeopleReactToThem
    #APictureOfSomeoneInTheirUnderwearIsUsuallyAssociatedWithSexinessWhichMakesMeFeelAwkwardAsIDoNotConsiderAnyOfMyWorkToBeSexy
    #ButIWantToDocumentMyChangingBodyAndMyFeedIsUsuallyFilledWithPicturesOfPeopleInTheirBikinisOnTheirHolidays

  • Whooping Cough Vaccine (17 weeks)

    #AtMyMidwifeAppointmentTheOtherDaySheSaidToGetTheWhoopingCoughVaccine
    #YouHaveToBe16WeeksOrMoreAndIWasJustOver16WeeksSoIBookedAnAppointment
    #IGoToTheAppointmentTodayAndAsWeAreWalkingToTheRoomTheWomanLooksAtMyBumpAndSaysNeverNeverNever
    #WeSitDownAndSheIsLikeSoYouAreHereForTheWhoopingCoughVaccine
    #AreYouPregnant
    #YouHaveToBe16WeeksOrMore
    #ISayIAm17Weeks
    #SheLooksAtMeSuspiciouslyAsIGazeDownAtMyBump
    #IStandUpAndPullMyTopInTightSoItAppears
    #SheSaysWellIGuessYouKnowBetterYourself
    #AndThereWasMeWorryingThatMyBumpWasTooBigForBeing17Weeks
    #SoSheGaveMeItAndItWasAllDoneInSeconds
    #IWasWaitingToDoAShootUntilAfterwardsAsIThoughtIWouldHaveAPlasterButIDidNot
    #WhichIsFineAsIDidNotNeedOne
    #ISaidIWouldDoAShootTodayWhereIWouldHaveATopOnAndIWouldFaceTheOtherDirection
    #ButTheVaccineWasAtTheTopOfMyLeftArmSoItMadeSenseToDoItThisWay
    #IGotHomeAndWasSoTiredThatIThoughtIWouldHaveANapFirst
    #ISleptFor3Hours
    #IHaveBeenFeelingMoreEnergeticButThisWeekWasSuperBusyAndIDidNotSleepInAsLateAsIPlanned
    #IAmStillFeelingAnxiousAboutThingsAboutTheHealthOfTheBaby
    #ButIAlsoRealisedTheOtherDayThatThisCouldBeTheOnlyTimeIAmEverPregnantInMyLife
    #SoIShouldTryToEnjoyItAsMuchAsICan
    #IDoNotKnowHowToReallyEnjoyItInTermsOfThereIsNotMuchICanDo
    #ButIGuessIMeanMoreJustTryingNotToWorrySoMuch
    #IGotReallyFreakedOutByTheFactThatThereIsSomeoneGrowingInsideMeAgainTheOtherDay
    #PeopleAskMeIfIAmScaredOfGivingBirth
    #IFeelKindOfExcitedByTheIdeaToBeHonest
    #MaybeIMightChangeMyMindAsMyBumpGetsBigger
    #ButIJustWantToEnjoyItAsMuchAsICanAsItSeemsLikeSuchABizarreThingThatWomenHaveBeenDoingForThousandsOfYears
    #IDidNotStretchLastNightAndMyHipsHurtAllNight

  • Goodbye (For Now) Food Aversions (17 and a half weeks)

    #IJustHadToRearrangeMy20WeekScanForASecondTime
    #TheySendYouALetterForAnAppointmentInThePost
    #ThenICalledUpToRescheduleItAsICouldNotMakeIt
    #UsuallyTheyCheckToSeeWhatDateAndTimeICanDo
    #ButThisTimeTheySaidTheDiariesWereNotOpenYetSoIWouldHaveToBeOnAWaitingList
    #GotANewAppointmentDateAndTimeTodayWhichTiagoCouldNotDo
    #ICouldHaveGoneAloneButTheHospitalIsQuiteFarAwayAndIThinkTiagoWantsToSeeTheBabyAsMuchAsIDo
    #ThoughItIsAScanForAbnormalitiesWhichIsABitScary
    #SoIWouldRatherThatTiagoIsThereTooJustIncaseItIsBadNews
    #FingersCrossed
    #InMorePleasantNewsALotOfMyFoodAversionsHaveDisappeared
    #IHaveEatenIndianFood5TimesInTheLastWeek
    #TiagoIsHappyAsHeCanCookALotOfHisUsualDishesAgain
    #AndWeHadTakeawayFromOurFavouriteIndianPlaceLastWeekWhichGaveMe3Meals
    #ItIsNiceToNotSitAtDinnerFeelingSickAndStrugglingToEat
    #IAmAwareItMayReturnAtSomePointSoIAmJustTryingToEnjoyItWhilstICan
    #TheMidwifeSaidIShouldBeEatingMorePulsesAndThingsLikeThat
    #SoIAmGladThatLentilsAndChickpeasNoLongerRepulseMe
    #IAmWearingOneOfMyFewPiecesOfMaternityClothing
    #ItIsACardiganForPregnancyAndNursing
    #ItMakesMeLookMorePregnant
    #ApparentlyYouCanWearItInAFewDifferentWays
    #WillProbablyBeHotToWearOnceTheBabyIsBornButItWillDoForNowAndForNextWinter
    #ItDoesGetColdInLiverpool
    #IDoNotWantToMakeAnyPurchasesForTheBabyUntilIAm6Months
    #ButINeedToStartMakingASpreadsheetWithWhatWeWantToBuy
    #IAmStillWorriedThatThingsMightGoWrongButIAmAlsoFeelingABitMoreRelaxed
    #ItIsNiceToBeAbleToTalkAboutBeingPregnantWithMorePeopleWhenISeePeopleInPerson
    #ItIsBecomingMoreObviousNowWithMyGrowingBumpButIWorryAboutBoringPeopleWithTalkingAboutItALot
    #IHadToDoAFullYogaVideoLastNightAsINeededAGoodStretchAndIDefinitelyFeltBetter

  • There Is Only So Much Longer That I Can Hide My Bump In My Dance Videos (18 weeks).

    #DefinitelyFeelingMorePregnant
    #BumpIsDefinitelyGrowing
    #IThinkARandomWomanWasStaringAtMyBumpTheOtherDayAtTheTrainStation
    #MorePeopleKnowNowButIUsuallyJustTellPeopleInPerson
    #OrIfTheyMessageMeAndIKnowIWillNotSeeThemUntilAfterIAnnounceIt
    #AsThereIsOnlySoMuchLongerThatICanHideMyBumpWithAJumperInMyDanceVideos
    #AndIWantToStartPostingThisProject
    #InPersonIUsuallyTryToTellPeopleInAnUnexpectedWay
    #LikeIDoNotSayIHaveSomethingToTellYouOrIHaveNews
    #SomeoneAskedHowTiagoIsAndISaidHeIsExcitedToBeAFather
    #SomeoneAskedIfTiagoWasMyHusbandTheOtherDayAndISaidYesAndMyBabyDaddy
    #SomeoneAskedIfAnyoneWasIllAndISaidIAmPregnantIfThatCounts
    #GenerallyPeopleAskingHowIAmIWillSayPregnant
    #ThoughTheOtherDayIHadJustEatenAndISaidIHadBeenTellingEveryoneThatIAmPregnant
    #SheLaughedAndThenAskedIfIWas
    #IAmSeeingAFriendTomorrowAndIMightJustSeeIfSheNoticesMyBump
    #SeeingTheLookOnPeoplesFacesIsHalfOfTheFun
    #IfNotMostOfTheFun
    #IAmHappyThatBrushingMyTeethHasBecomeLessOfATask
    #ICanActuallyBrushMyTeethMultipleTimesADayWithLessWorryNow
    #IHaveASoreThroatAtTheMoment
    #SoIDidASaltGargleThisMorning
    #IMadeItTooSaltyAsIWasThenSick
    #IHaveBeenPhotographingMyselfEverytimeIHaveBeenSickWhilstPregnant
    #ButIKnewThisWasMyOwnFaultSoIDidNot
    #ThatWasACoupleOfHoursAgoAndMyStomachFeelsABitUneasyStill
    #IHaveBeenUpSince5SomethingAsTiagoHadATrainToCatchAndIHaveFinallyGotIntoWatchingTheCircle
    #IKnowIWillRegretItLater
    #ParticularlyAsIHaveMyOwnTrainToCatchAndPlansForTonight
    #AndIAmNotFeelingVeryWellSoProbablyHaveMadeThingsWorseByNotGoingBackToSleep

  • My Portuguese-British Family and Me (19 weeks)

    #SoBrexitFinallyHappened
    #IFeelComfortedKnowingThatTiagoHasBritishCitizenship
    #ThoughIAmJealousOfHimStillBeingAnEUCitizen
    #HopefullyOurChildWillBeAbleToHaveBoth
    #SoIDoNotNeedToWorryAboutThem
    #IJustHopeThatOneDayICanBeAnEUCitizenAgainOneDay
    #IWillProbablyNeverGetOverBrexit
    #IWasSatFumingAllDayOnTheDayItFinallyHappened
    #PeopleOnTheNewsDoNotSeemAbleToGiveAGoodEnoughReasonStill
    #AndItHasBeen3AndAHalfYears
    #WeWereInPortugalWhenTheResultsCameOut
    #AndItWasTheGreyestDayOfOurTrip
    #WeSpentAgesGettingToABeach
    #AndTheWeatherWasJustTerrible
    #WhichReflectedOurMood
    #TheOnlyGoodThingAboutBrexitIsThatItStoppedUsGettingTrappedInZone5OfLondon
    #WeThoughtAboutDidWeReallyWantToSpendOurLivesThere
    #WeDecidedNo
    #SoWeStayedInZone2AndThenTiagosJobRoleChangedAfterAWhile
    #IDidNotSeeMyselfLeavingLondonForAnywhereElseInTheUK
    #ButThenOneDayWhenIKnewMyWatfordProjectWasNearlyDoneISaidIfYouWantToMoveUpNorthForYourJobThenIAmReadyNowAndWeLeftWithin5Weeks
    #AndNowWeLiveInLiverpool
    #SoIAmGladThatWeDidNotCommitToZone5InTheEnd
    #YesWeAreWearingTheSameTop
    #MyMumBoughtMeOneAndIBoughtAnother
    #ButTiagoWearsOneAsTheyAreNiceAndWarm
    #AndItIsColdUpHereInLiverpool
    #ItIsAwkwardWhenWeGoOutWithJumpersOnAndRealiseWeHaveTheSameTopOnUnderneath
    #SoOneOfUsHasToBoilInAJumperSoWeDoNotLookSilly
    #BlessTiagoBecauseItIsUsuallyHimBoilingInTheJumperAsWeDoNotWantToOverheatTheBaby

  • Have I Mentioned That Pregnancy Is So Weird? (21 weeks)

    #FinallyGotTheScreeningResults
    #TheScanPersonSaidToSpeakToMyMidwifeButTheMidwifeSaidToPhoneTheHospital
    #PhonedTheHospitalAndGotPassedAround
    #ButGotAPhoneCallBackWhichSaidIWasLowRiskForTheThreeSyndromes
    #IAmJustGladThatTheyDidNotLoseTheBloodSampleOrResults
    #AsIDoNotWantAnotherUnnecessaryBloodTest
    #TheLetterGotLostInThePostSoTheyAreSendingAnotherOne
    #ItIsReassuringToFeelTheBabyMovingAboutIt
    #ThoughItAlsoWorriesMeWhenIFeelNothing
    #INoticeTheMovementsMoreWhenIAmSatDownDrinkingWaterAndNotStressing
    #IThinkItDidNotReactToMyStarJumpsTheOtherDayAsItIsUsedToBeExercisingAndDancingAbout
    #ButItIsWeirdWhenYouFeelTheMovements
    #ThatThereIsALittleSomeonePawingInsideYou
    #HaveIMentionedThatPregnancyIsSoWeird
    #IKnowIHaveSaidItManyTimesAlready
    #IGetWorriedAboutThePregnancySometimesAndIExpressThis
    #IKnowThatPeopleAreTryingToBeReassuring
    #ButSomeoneTellingMeThatEverythingIsAndWillBeFineDoesNotAssureMe
    #YouCanBeTheHealthiestPersonInTheWorldWhateverThatMeans
    #ButThatDoesNotMeanThatYourBabyWillBeAbsolutelyFine
    #PregnancyIsNotLikeTakingATestWhereIfYouStudyYouCanDoYourBest
    #PregnancyIsUnpredictableAndYouCanNotControlItAndTheOutcome
    #IAmSureThingsWillAllBeFineButItIsGoodToBeRealistic
    #PeopleKnowAboutMyPregnancyNowAndIFeelAnxiousThatItIsOutInTheOpen
    #AsWhatIfThingsGoWrongAndIHaveToTellPeople
    #ButIAmQuiteHonestAboutThingsAndIAmSureIWillMakeWorkAboutThings
    #IJustWishIHadBeenMoreHonestAboutTryingToGetPregnantAndMadeWorkAboutIt
    #IMadeWorkAboutItButTheTextThatIWroteWasNotReallyAboutIt
    #ThisPhotoIsSimilarToAPhotoITookLastYearWhenIWasTryingToGetPregnant
    #IThoughtIShouldDocumentMyBodyInCaseIGotPregnantAndSoTheMainDifferenceInThisOneIsThatIHaveABump

  • It Is Kind Of Nice Knowing That I Am Never Alone (21 and a half weeks)

    #WellIAmIllAgain
    #IThoughtThatMaybeICouldBeatTheColdThatIFeltComingOnButNo
    #ItIsNotAsBadAsTheLastTwoTimesAtLeast
    #ItIsJustABitAnnoying
    #IThinkIAmGettingUsedToMyBodyChangingNow
    #ICanNotReallyRememberWhatItLookedLikeBefore
    #WellIAmRemindedByLookingAtOldSelfPortraits
    #ButIGuessThisIsMyNewNormal
    #IThinkIWillMissHavingABump
    #ThoughMaybeIWillNotBeSayingThatSoonWhenItGetsMoreUncomfortable
    #SoMaybeIWillMissHavingA21AndAHalfWeeksBump
    #ItIsKindOfNiceKnowingThatIAmNeverAlone
    #WasEatingMyBreakfastThisMorningAndIFeltItMove
    #ItMadeMeImagineMyKidInACoupleOfYearsTime
    #WatchingMeWheneverIEatAndWantingSomeOfIt
    #ThisMorningItWasKindOfPawingAtMe
    #LikeGiveMeSomeOfYourFood
    #ButObviouslyIGuessItWasHavingTheNutrientsFromItOrWhatever
    #ItSeemsToMoveMoreWhenIAmAboutToEat
    #MaybeItSensesMyExcitement
    #OrIsJustACoincidence
    #WhenItMovesIFeelReassured
    #ThenIFeelStressedWhenItDoesNot
    #IThinkItHasHadTheHiccupsAFewTimes
    #AsTheOtherDayIThoughtItWasMovingButItHadARhythmToit
    #AndMyMumHasMentionedThatSheUsedToFeelMySisterHiccuping
    #SoWeird
    #ItStillBlowsMyMindThatThereIsALittleHumanInMeAndOneDayItWillComeOut
    #IKindOfJustWantToKeepItInMyBellyForever
    #ButIAlsoWantToMeetTheLittleHumanThatIHaveGrownInsideMe


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