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Oh Me, Oh Mãe

Jocelyn Allen

2020 - 2021

United Kingdom

I began Oh Me, Oh Mãe after giving birth to my daughter, B, in June 2020. Mãe is Portuguese for mother (B is British-Portuguese).

As I had made a project about my pregnancy, I wanted to document early motherhood whilst being as honest as possible about my experiences. The images are accompanied by diaristic text (generally in the form of hashtags). The work is also a diary of becoming a mother during the Covid-19 pandemic.

I chose not to show B's full face within my work as she has no idea about the rest of the world and the internet at the moment. She may never want her face to be seen, so I want to wait until she is old enough to decide if she wants her face to be visible or not.

There are a few sub-series within the project with my favourite being 'Imitating B ___' that I have mainly selected to submit. This grew out of not showing her face.

The series came to a natural end when I discovered I was pregnant again in May 2021, and started work on a new project about being pregnant while being a mother to B.

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  • Breastfeeding, Bottle Feeding, Whatever Feeding (26th June 2020)
     
    #ItHasBeenOver2WeeksSinceIGaveBirthToBAt37WeeksAnd5Days
    #ILearnedHowToExpressAndBottleFeedInTheHospital
    #ThoughInHospitalIUsedAMachineThatINicknamedTheBeast
    #ItWasMassiveAndYouCouldExpressColostrumWithIt
    #AnywaysILikeExpressingAsItMakesMeFeelLessStressed
    #WithBreastfeedingSometimesItJustGoesOnAndOnAndMyNipplesGetSuperSore
    #ThoughIAmTryingToBreastfeedHerABitMoreAsSometimesIForgetThatIDoNotHaveToRunToTheFridge
    #OrWeCanStartThatWayWhilstTiagoRunsToTheFridge
    #OrICanBreastfeedUntilIGetFedUpOrWantToSleepThenTiagoCanContinueWithTheBottle
    #ThisMorningSheWokeUpAt6SoIDecidedToBreastfeedHerInTheOtherRoomToLetTiagoSleep
    #WeAlsoHaveAChangingStationSetUpInTheBedroomAndOneInTheLivingRoomToSaveHassle
    #AnywaysIHaveABreastPumpThatAFriendGaveMe
    #IWasNotSureIfIWouldExpressButAfterUsingOneInHospitalIWasGladToComeHomeToIt
    #IfIHadNotBeenInHospitalForSoLongThenIWouldNotHaveBeenConfidentWithBottlefeeding
    #WeHaveTeatsThatAreForBreastfeedingBabies
    #SoInsteadOfTheMilkJustGushingFromTheBottleTheyHaveToWorkForItLikeTheyDoFromTheBoob
    #IAmNotSureWhetherToSayBoobOrBreastButBoobSoundsMoreCasualAndILikeCasual
    #ThenOnTheOtherBoobIHaveASiliconeManualBreastPump
    #ItSuctionsOnAndOnceMilkStartsFlowingFromTheOneBoobItWillAlsoStartFromTheOther
    #IAlsoUseItWhenBreastfeedingAsItDoesTheSameJob
    #ItIsJustABitDifficultToPutItOnIfSheIsLyingAcrossMeSoIUsuallyRugbyBallHoldHer
    #BreastfeedingCanBeALotMessierIfIDoNotUseItAsOftenSheWillBeSoakedFromALeakyBoobEvenIfIHavePadsIn
    #ThePumpAttachesToClothesSoItIsGreatForAttachingToMyPantsAsItIsSoHotAtTheMoment
    #OfCourseTheBatteryRanOutForTheFirstTimeInTheMiddleOfTheShootSoIHadToPlugItIn
    #PeopleCallingToCheckOnUsAreALittleJudgementalAboutHowIWantToFeedHer
    #AfterMyHospitalExperienceICanSeeWhyPeopleGiveUpWithBreastfeedingOrNeverStart
    #IAmLuckyAsICameHomeConfidentWithBreastfeedingExpressingAndBottleFeedingButSomePeopleDoNotGetAllThatHelp
    #AndWithThePandemicThereIsLessFaceToFaceHelp
    #AlsoWhenYourMilkIsFlowingYouCanBleedSoIBoughtSomeReusablePadsWhichWillComeInHandyWhenIHaveToFaceMyPeriodAgain
    #AWeirdSideEffectOfBreastfeedingAndHavingABabyIsThatIAmMoreAmbidextrousNowAsMyLeftHandAndArmAreGettingStronger

  • I Am Worried That Someone Will Say I Am Holding Her Wrong (11th August 2020)
     
    #IWasAwareThatIHadNotTakenAPictureInSomeDays
    #ISeemToDoMoreShootsTowardsTheEndOfTheWeek
    #ButIThinkIAmPutOffTakingPicturesWhilstITryToCatchUpWithPostingThemOnMyBlogWhichIsBad
    #BWasAsleepInHerPushchairBassinetAndIKnewIHadToFeedHerSoon
    #SoISetMyStudioStuffUpReadyAndTookAFewTestShotsWithoutHer
    #IFeltComfortableUsingTheLightsAsIKnewSheWouldBeFacingMe
    #IThoughtIWouldWriteTheHashtagsBeforeSheWokeUpButSheWokeUpSoonerThanIThought
    #IDidTheShootAndThenIStartedToPutStuffAwayWhilstFeedingHer
    #ThenShePutHerHandOnMyChestSoIPutEverythingBackAndDidSomeMorePhotos
    #IAmWorriedThatSomeoneWillSayIAmHoldingHerWrong
    #IWasSweatingTheWholeTimeAsItIsSoHotToday
    #PlannedToGoOutForLunchWithBToACoffeeShop
    #IEndedUpGoingTwoHoursLaterThanPlannedButItWasNice
    #ASignSaidToWearMasksIfYouAreNotSittingDownButIWasTheOnlyPersonWearingAMaskAroundTheCounter
    #ThisMorningWeWentToTheHospitalAsBHadToGetHerFeetLookedAt
    #SheWasBornWithPositionalTalipesWhichIThinkIsMoreWidelyKnownAsClubfoot
    #IHaveFinallyStoppedPronouncingTalipesLikeItIsPortuguese
    #TalipesIsACommonProblemApparently
    #BWokeMeUpAt5ThenWeBothWentBackToSleepAndMyAlarmDidNotGoOff
    #IWokeUpAndWasStressedOutAndTurnedToTToTellHimToGetUpButHeWasInTheBathroom
    #WeHadHalfAnHourToGetUpAndOut
    #SomehowWeManagedItButWeWereStressedAsWeHadNeverBeenToThatHospitalBefore
    #IEndedUpOnlyBeingACoupleOfMinutesLateAsInsteadOfAskingForDirectionsRightAwayITriedToFindTheDepartmentMyself
    #TheLetterWasAddressedToBabyAllenWhichTiagoSaidWasRudeButThatWasWhatSheWasCalledWhenSheWasBornAsMySurnameIsAllenAndIGaveBirthToHer
    #ISatDownForAMinuteAfterGivingHerFullNameAtReceptionThenWeGotCalledThrough
    #WeGotThroughTheQuestionsQuickThenAWomanCheckedHerFeetAndWithinAFewMinutesWeWereDone
    #SheThenSpentAgesJustTalkingToBBeforeWeWentToFindTiagoToGoHome
    #ThingsAreDefinitelyGoingBetterWithBreastfeedingThoughYesterdayWeWentToDinnerAndBottleFedHer
    #TheLastTwoMealsSheHadBeenAsleepTheWholeTimeWhereasThisTimeSheWasAwakeButItWasNiceToBuildOurConfidenceWithBeingOutWhilstSheIsAwake
    #IJustFeltMoreRelaxedBottlefeedingAndWeCouldShareItButIDoWantToTryToBreastfeedMoreInPublic

  • They Say That It Takes A Village To Raise A Child, But We’re Cut Off From The Village (7th October 2020)
     
    #TiagoSaysThatWeDoNotHaveAVillage
    #IPointedOutThatWeDoButItIsJustNotALocalVillageAsNoOneFromOurFamilyLivesCloseToUs
    #BsSleepHasGottenWorse
    #SheWasWakingUpAtNightBeforeButSheDidNotNeedToBeFedAndCouldBeSettled
    #NowSheWakesUpWithAHarshCryAndWillOnlySettleIfIFeedHer
    #IThinkSheFeedsMoreForComfortThanBecauseSheIsHungryThough
    #SheHadInjectionsAndThatNightSheSleptStraightThrough
    #WhichWasOddAsSheDoesUsuallyWakeUp
    #IHaveHadToFeedHerTwiceTheLastCoupleOfNights
    #WeWereGettingAnnoyedLastNight
    #IPutHerOnOurBedToGetReadyToFeedHer
    #ThenSheStartedToSmileAndBeAllCuteSoWeInstantlyFeltBad
    #IWasReadingThatYouShouldNotWatchTVAndBeOnYourPhoneWhilstYouFeed
    #IHaveBeenFeelingDownAgainSinceTiagoWentBackToWork
    #AndTheFilmsHaveBeenHighlightsDuringLongFeeds
    #AsIUsuallyFeedHerFor40Minutes
    #ThereIsOnlySoMuchThatICanTalkToHerWhilstSheHasHerMouthFull
    #YesIDoFeelGuilty
    #MyLifeIsPrettyMuchTheSameEveryday
    #IThinkThisPandemicIsMakingMeMoreSociallyAwkwardThanIAlreadyWas
    #TheIdeaOfGroupChatsJustMakesMeFeelAnxious
    #ICanNotImagineBeingInARoomFullOfPeopleAtAnEventAnymore
    #ItIsSoWeird
    #WeTookBSwimmingTheOtherDay
    #SheSeemedToLikeItThoughWeWereOnlyInTheWaterFor20Minutes
    #ItWasNiceToDoSomethingDifferentAsAFamily
    #TheWeatherHasTurnedAndTheOtherDayIDidNotGoOutForAWalkThenYesterdayIGotRainedOn
    #INeedToJustFocusOnTakingLifeOneDayAtATime
    #AndTryToFindMorePositivityInThisWeirdTimeAsOtherwiseItIsGoingToBeAVeryLongWinter
    #IReallyEnjoyedThisShootWithBSoMaybeINeedToCollaborateWithHerMore

  • Imitating B Trying To Eat Her Toes (24th November 2020)
     
    #ThisShootWasMeJustImitatingBWhenSheDoesTheHappyBabyYogaPoseAndWhenSheTriesToPutHerToesInHerMouth
    #ICanSeeHowThePoseGotTheNameNow
    #SheHasBeenDoingThisForAWhileButMyPlanOfCopyingHerHasBeenNeglectedForAWhile
    #YesterdayITookHerOutForTwoWalksDuringHerAwakeTimes
    #HerWakeWindowsAreUsuallyBetweenTwoAndTwoAndAHalfHoursNow
    #ThatIsALongTimeToEntertainHer4TimesADay
    #SoItMakesSenseToTakeHerOutDuringHerPlaytimesRatherThanNaptimes
    #IPutHerForwardFacingInHerCarrierForTheFirstTime
    #SheIsOldEnoughNowAndIFiguredItMightBeBetterForLettingHerSeeThings
    #FirstITookHerOutInTheMorningAndALotOfPeopleSaidGoodMorningToUsWhichWasReallyNice
    #SheJustSeemedToCheerSomePeopleUpAndWeStoppedToTalkToAYoungGirlAndHerFamilyWhoHadPointedAtHer
    #IWalkedForABitTooLongAndBFellAsleep
    #NextITookHerOutInTheAfternoonButWeDidNotMakeItSoFar
    #ThereWereALotOfSchoolKidsAroundWhichFreaksMeOutALittleBitSoNextTimeWeNeedToBeEarlier
    #IHadPutSomeLittleBootsOnHerFeet
    #ButAfterGettingHomeTheSecondTimeICouldNotFindOneOfThem
    #IWaitedForTiagoToFinishAWorkCallSoHeCouldWatchB
    #ThenIRetracedOurStepsAndFoundItNotSoFarAwayOnAPath
    #SoINeedToBeCarefulAboutTheAmountOfTimeAndKeepAnEyeOnHerBoots
    #TheWeatherWasReallyNiceYesterdayButPuttingHerInTheCarrierMightNotBeAGreatPlanForEveryday
    #SheHasBeenWakingUpALotAtNightLatelyWhichIsMakingTAndIABitGrumpy
    #LastWeekSheWasStillBreastfeedingTwoOrThreeTimesADay
    #ButNowSheReallyDoesNotWantToBreastfeedWhichIsABitOfAShame
    #IThinkItProbablyHasALotToDoWithHerTeething
    #ThoughSometimesIAmTryingToGetHerToLatchOnAndSheJustTipsHerHeadBackAndLooksLonginglyAtAnEmptyBottleThatIForgotToMove
    #MyMumSaysThatSheWantedToBreastfeedMySistersAndIForLongerButWeStoppedBeingInterestedAround4Months
    #TodayIMightJustTryFormulaFeedingHerForEveryFeedAndSeeIfThatHelpsWithHerSleep
    #IAlsoMightGiveHerSomeBabyRiceTodayButIFeelLikeISayThatEveryday
    #IAmCurrentlySpendingALotOfMyFreeTimePlanningForAHashtagWorkshop
    #IAmNervousAboutItButIHopeThatItGoesWellAndThatPeopleEnjoyIt

  • I Carried Her Coat Down The Stairs On My Head And Thought It Was Interesting Enough For A Photo (1st December 2020)
     
    #IAmInSuchABadMoodThisMorning
    #BSleptForAbout7HoursStraightLastNightButItIsNeverEnough
    #IHaveBeenPreparingSomeButternutSquashForHerToday
    #AndAttemptedToMakeAButternutSquashAndCarrotSoupForUs
    #YesterdayTheHealthVisitorCameAndSheSaidBIsProgressingWell
    #SheIsStayingWithinHerWeightPercentileWhichIsGood
    #ISaidThatIAmStrugglingABitMentally
    #InLiverpoolIToldMyGPWhoSaidToTellMyHealthVisitor
    #HereInBirminghamTheHealthVisitorSaysIShouldTellMyGPAndGaveMeANumberForAPostNatalServiceToTry
    #IFeltQuiteGoodYesterdaySoIThoughtIWouldCallThemWhenIFeltBad
    #IMightGiveThemACallLater
    #TheHealthVisitorIsComingAtTheEndOfThisMonthToCheckOnMeAgain
    #SheKeptSayingThatIFeltLonelyButIDoNotReallyIJustWantMoreVariationInBsPlaytimes
    #IHaveFinallyManagedToSignBUpForAClass
    #ThereAreSomeClassesBeforeXmasAndThenThereIsABigGapThenAnotherFew
    #IAmExcitedButAlsoVeryNervous
    #OurScheduleIsVeryFocusedAroundHomeSoIFeelABitStressedAboutHavingToPlanAroundAClass
    #ItWillBeGoodForUsThoughAndIHopeToFindOthersToGoTo
    #IWasHopingThatTheHealthVisitorWouldGiveMeAListOfPlacesThatICouldGoTo
    #TheChildrensCentreIsQuiteFarToWalkToButApparentlyTheyHaveOnlineClassesAtTheMoment
    #IHaveNotHadToPackABagForBForAges
    #AndIHaveNotFedHerInPublicForALongTime
    #IGuessIShouldTakeABottleOfFormulaJustInCase
    #TheOtherDayISaidSheHadNotBreastfedInAWhileAndThatIHadGivenUp
    #IInspiredMyselfToTryAgain
    #IDoNotThinkSheIsGettingMuchButSheIsGettingSomething
    #IWasQuiteSurprisedThatMyMilkHadNotCompletelyDriedUp
    #MyWorkshopWentWellThoughALotMorePeopleSignedUpThanAttended
    #IWorkedHardOnItSoInTheEveningITreatedMyselfToABathWithSomeBathSaltsThatIBought5MonthsAgoButHadNotUsedYet
    #ThereWasNotMuchHotWaterSoInTheEndIJustSoakedMyselfInAPrettyColdBath

  • Imitating B’s One Red Cheek (19th December 2020)
     
    #BHasBeenTeethingSinceBeforeWeMoved
    #SheStillDoesNotHaveAToothToShowForItAllButMaybeOneIsNearlyHere
    #SheUsuallyHasTwoRedCheeksWhenItIsAtItsWorst
    #ButTheOtherDaySheHadJustOneForTheFirstTime
    #IUsuallyGiveHerSomeTeethingPowderDuringTheDay
    #IWouldNotHaveThoughtItWouldWorkButAFriendRecommendedIt
    #AndThenAtNightIfItSeemsBadIWillGiveHerParacetamol
    #SheWokeUpALotLastNightSoIProbablyShouldHaveGivenHerSomeMore
    #IWishSheCouldCommunicateAndLetUsKnowIfSheIsInALotOfPain
    #IJustDoNotWantToGiveHerTooMuchParacetamolUnnecessarily
    #MyPlanToGetUpAt7ishHasNotBeenGoingSoWellTheLastCoupleOfDays
    #TypicallyWeAlwaysSeemToGetUpLateOnDaysWhereWeNeedToBeOutOfTheHouseInTheMorning
    #YesterdayIReadAnArticleAboutMotherhoodAndArtistsAt2amAndCouldNotSleepAgainUntil5am
    #MyBrainWouldNotStopThinkingAboutIt
    #IFeelLikeIShouldNotBeMakingSoMuchWorkAboutMotherhood
    #ButItIsAHugeNewPartOfMyLifeAndSoItSeemsLikeAnObviousThingToDo
    #EspeciallyWhenMyWorkIsALotAboutProcessingMyThoughtsAndFeelingsMostOfTheTime
    #IHaveBeenFeelingFineMentallyStill
    #ThoughOnDaysWhereItRainsAllDayIDoFeelALittleStuckIndoors
    #YesterdayWeManagedToWalkToAClassAndAvoidTheRainOnTheWayThere
    #EveryoneHadTheirBabiesInChristmasOutfits
    #IManagedToPutBInSomethingOtherThanAOnesieButSheLookedLikeSheWasDressedForEaster
    #AtLeastIHadRedAndGreenSocksOnButTheyWereWatermelonRelated
    #IAmNotTooFussedAboutChristmas
    #BWillNotRealiseWhatIsGoingOn
    #IHaveAlreadyGivenHerHerChristmasPresentAsIDidNotSeeThePointOfWaiting
    #SheLikesTheMonkeyPuppetThatTheTeacherInYesterdaysClassUses
    #WeWereWaitingForTiagoToPickUsUpAndIMentionedThatIWantedToGetBOne
    #TheTeacherSellsThemSoIGotHerOneAndGaveItHerInTheCar
    #OpeningAndClosingItsMouthIsAGoodHandStrengtheningWorkout

  • I Have Started To Balance Things On My Head For B’s Amusement (30th December 2020)
     
    #ItIs9InTheMorningAndBIsHavingANap
    #WeMadeAnEffortToStartTheDayAt7TodayThoughYesterdayItWasMoreLike5
    #IFeelLikeBJustHadAReallyFunHourAndIWishICouldBeThatHighEnergyAllDayWithHer
    #LotsOfSingingSongsAndLiftingHerIntoTheAirAndReadingBooksEtc
    #TheOtherDayIHadARagingHeadacheAndStillManagedToPretendToBeAHorseWhileSingingTheWilliamTellOverture
    #WeBounceHerUpAndDownWhileWeSingItButWeGetExtraGigglesIfOneOfUsIsAHorseToo
    #IAlsoLoveHowILookForwardToHavingMeTimeButThenISpendSomeOfItLookingAtPicturesAndVideosOfHer
    #SheHasBeenABitGrumpyTheLastFewDaysBecauseOfTeething
    #WeWentToMyParentsHouseTheOtherDayForTheFirstTimeInMonths
    #WeAreAllowedToBeInASupportBubbleWithThemAsBIsUnder1
    #BWasCryingAsSheDidNotRecogniseMyDadAndWasEvenBeingFunnyWithMyMumEvenThoughSheSeesHerAFewTimesAWeek
    #IHopeTheTeethingStopsForABitSoonAsIFeelBadForB
    #INeedToStopMakingHerNewFoodAndUseWhatWeHaveInTheFreezer
    #ISuddenlyRealisedYesterdayThatSoonSheWillBe7MonthsAndCanStartEatingOtherThings
    #AndWeHaveAFreezerFullOfHomemadeBabyFoodAndNoSpareTubsForNewStuff
    #IThinkIAmGivingHerTooMuchPorridgeInTheMorningAsSheDoesNotLikeToEatMuchForLunch
    #ButSheGenerallyAlwaysEatsHerPorridgeSoIUsuallyMakeABatchWhichIsEnoughFor3Days
    #YesterdayIMadeSomeCourgetteSpringOnionRiceWithCheese
    #SheDidNotSeemImpressedByItButIEnjoyedEatingSome
    #TodaySheMightEatItAllSoYouNeverKnowThoughIWillTryGivingItToHerForDinnerRatherThanLunch
    #InOtherNewsIHaveCompletedMyKegelsApp
    #WellItIsNotCompletedAsKegelsAreForLifeNotJustUntilYouReachTheHardestLevel
    #TheyAreSoTimeConsumingNowAndIProbablyDoNotDoThemThatWellButIGuessSomeIsBetterThanNone
    #INeedToGoOnATrampolineAndSeeHowEffectiveTheyReallyAre
    #IAlsoNeedToStopTalkingSoMuchRubbishToPeople
    #IJustGetVerbalDiarrhoeaAndAfterwardsICringeAtAllOfTheThingsThatIHaveSaid
    #IHaveSaidItBeforeButIThinkThisPandemicHasImpactedMySocialSkills
    #ObviouslyWorseThingsHaveHappenedToALotOfPeopleButItIsAWeirdSideEffect
    #ThoughReallyIThinkMySocialSkillsHaveAlwaysBeenBadAndIAmJustMoreAwareOfThingsAtTheMoment
    #ItHasSnowedTheLastCoupleOfDaysAndBSeemsALittleIntriguedByItButObviouslyICanNotFindOutWhatSheReallyThinksAboutItAll
     

  • Imitating B With Her Hands And Feet On The Floor (6th March 2021)
     
    #BIsDefinitelyMovingAroundQuickerEachDay
    #YesterdaySheGotStuckByTheCushionsByTheTVAsSheOnlyLikesRollingOneWaySoSheKeptRollingIntoThemRatherThanAwayFromThem
    #ThisPhotoIsMeImitatingHerWithHerHandsAndFeetOnTheFloorWhichSheHasStartedToDoInTheLastWeekOrSo
    #ICanNotImagineHerWalkingAroundButIGuessThoseDaysAreGettingCloserAndCloser
    #SometimesAtNightNowIHearHerCryingSoITurnOnTheMonitorAndSheIsJustSatUpInHerCot
    #IHadACallWithMySupportBefrienderPersonTheOtherDay
    #SheSaidSheThatCouldTellThatIWasDown
    #ISaidIDoNotKnowWhyIBotherMakingProjectsAndThingsWithTheFreeTimeIHaveWhenICouldBeRelaxingInstead
    #SheSaidItIsBecauseYouLoveIt
    #ILikeThisProjectFromTimeToTimeButItIsMoreThatIFeelIHaveToMakeIt
    #WhenIDoAGoodShootIFeelGreatButWhenIDoNotIFeelPrettyDown
    #SoHerCommentGaveMeAKickToActuallyStartShootingForAProjectThatIHaveBeenThinkingAboutForAFewWeeks
    #IDoNotKnowIfItWillEverSeeTheLightOfDayButIDefinitelyFeelBetterForHavingStartedIt
    #ThisMorningTiagoGotBUpAt7AndHeWillLookAfterHerUntilHerNapAtAround10
    #IDidMyDanceVideosFirstThingToGetThemDoneAsIFeelLikeTheyHangOverMeAtTheWeekend
    #TodayIReallyEnjoyedItButSomeWeeksItIsJustAnotherThingThatIFeelIHaveToDo
    #INeedToStopFeelingGuiltyForHavingSomeTimeToMyself
    #IWorkPrettyQuicklyNowWithTheFreeTimeIHaveAndTiagoIsBsDadSoOfCourseHeShouldBeSpendingTimeWithHer
    #IThinkIFeelBadAsTiagoIsWorkingAllWeekAndMakingMoneyWhereasIDoNotMakeMuch
    #IAmDoingSomeNonArtPaidWorkAtTheMomentWhichIJustDoInFifteenMinutesToTwoHoursIshSessions
    #IDoLookForOtherWorkWhereBWouldHaveToGoToNurseryButThereDoesNotSeemToBeMuchOutThere
    #ItWouldAlsoNeedToBeSomethingWhichLeavesMeWithEnoughAfterPayingNurseryFeesToSeemWorthIt
    #MostOfTheMumsIKnowWithBabiesOfASimilarAgeAreEitherBackAtWorkOrGoingBackSoon
    #ItIsAnnoyingInTheSenseThatSoonWeWillBeAbleToHangOutWithOtherBabiesButTheyAllMightBeInNurseries
    #IGuessThereWillBeSomeAroundThoughWhoseParentsWorkPartTimeOrWhoAreInASimilarPosition
    #IHaveSpokenToACoupleOfMumsThisWeekAtThePlaygroundWeGoTo
    #IRealiseNowThatEveryoneElseProbablyWantsToChatButTheyAreJustAsAwkwardAsMe
    #MyCurrentMumPickupLineIsHowOldIsYourLittleOne
    #WeSayWeWillSeeEachOtherAroundButWeHaveLivedHereForFourMonthsAndIDoNotThinkIHaveSeenThemBefore
    #WorkingOnANewProjectAndTalkingToPeopleMakesMeFeelHappierSoINeedToKeepOnDoingWhatIAmDoing

  • Imitating B Inspecting Dirt On The Floor (21st March 2021)
     
    #NothingGetsPastBTheseDays
    #EspeciallyAnyBitOfDirtOnTheFloorThatSheIsQuickToPickUp
    #SheIsSoFastAndWeBreatheASighOfReliefWhenSheSitsStillForAMinute
    #ThisWeekHasBeenMyBusiestWeekSinceSheWasBornIThink
    #AndOfCourseItCoincidedWithBsFirstToothStartingToCutThroughHerGums
    #ItIsDay6AndIDoNotThinkItHasBrokenTheSurfaceYet
    #AWomanAtTheParkSaidItCanTakeUpToAMonthForAToothToFullyAppear
    #WeHaveStartedToBrushBsTeethOrRatherGumsToGetHerUsedToUsDoingIt
    #HerToothpasteIsFor0To2YearOldsButItSaysTheyShouldSpitItOut
    #BHasBeenLaughingAtMeShowingHerHowToSpitItOutButIDoNotThinkItMattersThatMuch
    #HerNapsHaveGenerallyBeenALotShorterAndSheUsuallyWakesUpAt6amNow
    #IHaveBeenWorkingUntil11ishQuiteALotButThenItTakesSoLongForMyBrainToSwitchOff
    #WeManagedOneEpisodeOfAShowForDateNightLastNightThenWeWentToBedAt10
    #IAmDreadingTheClocksChangingNextWeekendThoughIAmLookingForwardToLighterEvenings
    #YesterdayIHadPortfolioReviewsAndWorkWorkToDoSoTiagoLookedAfterBForMostOfTheDay
    #IWasReadingSomethingAboutTheSuccessOfAFemaleArtistAfterHavingKidsSeemsToCorrelateToHowSupportiveTheirPartnerIs
    #IFeelLuckyThatTiagoIsSupportiveOfItAllAsOtherwiseItWouldBeHarderToGetThingsDone
    #ForTheNextMonthOrSoIWillBeOutALotMoreWorkingWhichMeansLessTimeForMyOwnStuffSoWeWillSeeHowThatAllGoes
    #AKidAtTheParkTheOtherDayCameOverAndStartedToPushBInTheSwing
    #SheDidNotKnowWhatToMakeOfItAndIWasAlsoABitUnsureOfWhatToDo
    #IDoNowKnowHowToTalkToKids
    #TheOtherDayICriedAsIHadQuiteATenderMomentWithB
    #SheWasInspectingMyFingersWithGreatCareAndWasLaughingAtMeRaisingMyEyebrowsUpAndDown
    #SheAlsoHasANewCheekyGrinWhichIsSuperAdorable
    #SheLikesToPlayWithTheBalloonsThatWeBlewUpForOneOfHerBabyClasses
    #SheIsYetToUnderstandThatTheyCanPopAndIAmNotLookingForwardToTheDayThatTheyDo
    #RecentlySheWasReallyDiggingHerFingersIntoItAndIHatedTheNoise
    #IQuicklyPutMyHandsOverMyEarsAndSheAlsoFoundThatHilarious
    #INeedToDoSomeResearchIntoWhatSoundsAllAnimalsMake
    #ForExampleWhatSoundDoesAGiraffeMake

  • Imitating B Standing Up In Her Cot (17th April 2021)
     
    #ThisSeemsToBeANewSkillThatBHasDevelopedInTheLastFewDays
    #ThisMorningTiagoWentToGetHerAndSaidThatSheWasStandingUpInIt
    #AtTimesSheGripsSoTightToTheFrameThatHerHandsLoseTheirColour
    #IAmSoRelievedThatItIsTheWeekend
    #TheWeekdaysJustSeemToDragSoMuchAndByThursdayIAmUsuallyNotFeelingSoGreat
    #IWasGladWeGoToGoToAClassThisWeekButThenIJustFeltRubbishAfterwards
    #ItWasSoNiceToSitInARoomWithPeopleAndBabiesAndToInteract
    #SoEverydaySinceHasJustFeltCrummyAsIWantTheSameExperienceEveryWeekday
    #NextWeekWeHaveAFewMoreThingsInOurDiarySoHopefullyItWillBeNicer
    #SomeDaysITakeBOutTwiceADayJustToTryToHaveSomeKindOfInteractionWithSomeone
    #ItSoundsDumbAsObviouslyWeLiveWithMyNanAndTiagoButSometimesTiagoIsOutOrIDoNotWantToBotherHim
    #AlsoAFewMinutesIsNotTheSameAsHangingOutWithSomeoneForAPeriodOfTime
    #IFeelBadAsIFeelLonelyWhenISpendAllDayWithB
    #SheIsGoodCompanyButItIsTheNotTheSameAsHavingConversationsWithPeople
    #IWorrySheWillReadThisWhenSheIsOlderAndFeelBad
    #BILoveYouButThisPandemicHasBeenToughAndThingsAreNotHowIThoughtTheyWouldBe
    #IFeelLikePeopleCanSmellTheDesperationOnMeAndAgainMySocialSkillsAreRubbish
    #ICanNotBeTheOnlyOneInTheAreaThatFeelsLikeThisThough
    #IWouldSignBUpForAClassEverydayButALotClashWithBsNaps
    #ICouldTryToRearrangeHerDayButItFeelsLikeABitTooMuch
    #EspeciallyAsIDoLikeTheScheduleWeHaveAndIAmUsedToIt
    #SoIProbablyShouldNotWhineThenButIAmABitStuckInMyWays
    #AtSomePointSheWillGoDownToOneNapADayAndThenThatWillChangeTheDayALot
    #ThoughForNowINeedHerToHaveHerTwoNapsSoICanGetThingsDone
    #YesterdayIWasSoTiredThatIJustGotIntoBedAndReadAndNappedDuringThem
    #MyBodyGetsToAPointWhereItIsSoTiredThatIJustNeedToRestAndRecover
    #IThinkTheTirednessIsOftenCausedByMyMentalStateButIfThereIsNothingPressingToDoThenARestIsFine
    #AnywaysINeedToStopWhiningAndTryToBeProactiveToMakeTheWeekdaysBetter
    #IStillDreadMealtimesABitThoughSheIsEatingWellTheseDays
    #HopefullyWithBetterWeatherOnTheWayWeCanJustSitOutsideMoreAndThatWillBeEnoughOfAChangeToMakeTheDaysPassBetter
     

  • Imitating B Chewing On A Wet Flannel (28th April 2021)
     
    #IAmSurprisedThatIsHasTakenMeThisLongToGetRoundToImitatingBChewingOnAWetFlannel
    #AfterAMealIUsuallyWetAFlannelATryToWashHerFace
    #HoweverSheJustWantsToChewOnItAsIGuessItMustFeelNiceForHerEverTeethingGums
    #IBetWhenSheIsOlderBWillCallMeOutChoosingNotToShowHerFullFaceButDecidingToShareThingsLikeThis
    #FairPlayFutureB
    #SheHasStartedToSayGaGaMoreNow
    #YesterdayWeGotSentAQuestionnaireToFillInAboutHerDevelopment
    #AHealthVisitorWouldUsuallyVisitHerAround9To12MonthsToDoItButBecauseOfCovidTheyAreNotDoingItFaceToFace
    #ThereAreQuestionsAboutCommunicationGrossMotorSkillsFineMotorSkillsProblemSolvingPersonalSkillsAndSocialSkills
    #IThinkBNowDoesMostOfTheThingsThatItTalksAboutButIAmWorriedAboutFillingItInWrong
    #ItIsShameThatSomeoneCanNotJustComeRoundAndDoItButIDoNotHaveAnyConcernsAboutHer
    #LastWeekIWasWorriedThatSheWasTooHotInTheNightAndNowIThinkSheHasBeenTooCold
    #SheWasAwakeForAnHourAndAHalfTheOtherNightButWentBackToSleepAfterIPutHerHeaterOn
    #ItWasEitherThatThatFixedItOrItWasACoincidence
    #IGotABitEmotionalYesterdaySeeingBHavingFunWithBabiesHerOwnAge
    #WeHadAPicnicWithAMotherAndBabyFromOneOfHerClassesAndItWasReallyNice
    #ThenSheWasJustCrawlingAroundAndInteractingWithBabiesInHerClass
    #ThisIsHowItShouldHaveBeenTheWholeTimeSheHasBeenAliveButOhWell
    #TheTeacherSaidThatTheyLearnTheConceptOfSharingAtFourWhichWeAllSighedAt
    #ButReadingOnlineAnArticleSaysTheyReallyWantThingsToBeFairByTheTimeTheyAreSevenOrEight
    #SoPlentyMoreYearsOfApologisingForBGrabbingToysAwayFromOtherKidsGreat
    #MyAuntCameRoundToVisitUsAndBWasNotHappyAboutIt
    #ThoughAgainAfterAWhileSheWasFineInHerCompanySoItIsGoodToKnowItIsJustAboutPerseverance
    #IWasFeelingABitDownTheOtherDayAgainAndThenIRealisedThatTiagoHasNotHadAWeekOffSinceTheStartOfOctober
    #NoWonderWeAreAllTired
    #HeHasFinallyBookedAWeekOffInAMonthOrSoSoItIsNiceToHaveSomethingToCountDownTo
    #INeedToWorkToBeMorePresentWhenIAmWithB
    #ICompletedASurveyAboutSocialMediaTheOtherDayAndItAskedMeAboutMyMoodsWhenUsingIt
    #IWasReallyNegativeAboutAllOfItSoINeedToUseItAndMyPhoneALotLess
    #IWantToBeABetterMotherToBAndIWantToFeelHappier

  • Hire Us For Your Denim Advert (6th May 2021)
     
    #ThisWeekIsMaternalMentalHealthAwarenessWeek
    #ItFeelsSomewhatFittingAsIWasSupposedToDoAllThisYesterdayButIFeltTooCrapTo
    #IHadANapWhenBHadHerFirstNapAndIFeltMuchBetterButTheRestOfTheDayWasStillASlog
    #ThisProjectIsSupposedToBeAllAboutHonestyAndStuffButIFeelLikeIDoLeaveQuiteABitOut
    #IThinkFromReadingMyProjectThoughItIsSomewhatClearThatIHaveBeenStruggling
    #ItGoesUpAndDownAndSometimesIFeelFineAndThenIJustReallyRubbishAgain
    #IHaveBeenFindingItHardToGetOutOfBedEvenIfISleepFairlyWell
    #IThinkIHaveDippedAgainBecauseTheWeatherHasBeenSoCrummyAgainLately
    #ItJustRainsEveryDayAndIFeelStuckInsideButMoreThingsReopenIn11DaysSoIHopeThatWillMakeABigDifference
    #IFeelLikeICanNotCompletelyRelaxInTheLivingRoomAtMyNansHouseWhichIsMoreToDoWithMeThanHer
    #AgainWithTheWeatherBeingRubbishItMeansOurOptionsAreLimitedWithWhereWeCanGo
    #AsBHasBlackoutBlindsTapedToHerWindowIDoNotLikeToTakeHerInThereMuchAsItIsSoDark
    #SoThisMorningIBroughtHerToOurBedroomWhichIHadToChildproofABitMoreForHer
    #IWasWorriedThatSheWasColdAndIDidNotWantToGoDownstairsToGetHerUsualIndoorJacket
    #SoIPutHerInHerDenimJacketThatSheHadNotWornBeforeAndIHadBroughtUpstairsAnHourBefore
    #ThenIRememberedThatTiagoHasADenimJacketSoIThoughtIWouldWearItAndWeCouldDoAShootToPassTheTimeUntilBreakfast
    #IAmNotSureWhichPictureIWillChooseYetButBWasQuiteFedUpAndIWasFeelingDownSoIfItLooksAllHappyFamilyThenThatMightNotBeTheReality
    #HireUsForYourDenimAdvert
    #MyMumIsHereNowSoIThinkWeWillGoHomeWithHerJustToGetAChangeOfScenery
    #BWasIllAndShePassedItOntoMeAndNowAllMyTeethHurtWhichIHopeIsJustRelatedToFeelingRundown
    #ItIsPainfulAndParacetamolDoesNotSeemToTouchItWhichDoesNotMakeMeFeelMuchBetter
    #BeingIllWhenYouDoNotHaveAKidIsTotallyDifferentToBeingIllWithAKid
    #LuckilyItWasABankHolidayWeekendSoTiagoWasAroundToHelpForAnExtraDayButICouldHaveJustDoneWithLyingInBedForAFewDaysButSillyMeFeelsGuiltyAboutSuchThingsNow
    #YesterdayWeDidAVideoCallInTheKitchenAndIPutBsWalkerThereToSeeIfSheWouldUseIt
    #BeforeIHadEvenStartedTheCallSheStoodUpAndStartedToPushItWhichWasAHugeSurprise
    #ITriedToGetHerToShowTiagoLaterButIThinkSheWasABitTiredAndDidNotDoItSoWell
    #SomeGoodNewsIsHeHadAnInterviewForHisBritishPassportAndThatWasFineSoFingersCrossedThatWillBeSortedSoon
    #WeAreDefinitelyInNeedOfSomeTimeAwaySomewhereAndWeHopeWeCanSeeHisFamilyThisSummer
    #IDoWonderHowIWouldHaveBeenIfIHadHadABabyInNonCovidTimesButIGuessIWouldStillBeStrugglingInSomeWay
    #IAmJustPissedOffThatItHasBeenATotalPostcodeLotteryWithWhatHasBeenOpenInDifferentAreasOverTheLastFewMonthsAndWithWhatSupportYouGet

  • Imitating B Sucking Her Thumb (9th May 2021)
     
    #WellMaybeSheIsSuckingHerThumbOrMaybeSheIsJustTeething
    #TheTeethingSeemsLikeItWillNeverEndAndSheStillOnlyHasOneTooth
    #IHaveJustNoticedHerSuckingHerThumbAndFlappingHerHandAroundInTheLastWeek
    #SheHasBeenWakingUpBefore6LatelySoWeNeedToSeeWhatWeCanDoToPushHerWakeupTimeBack
    #IJustSeemSuperTiredAtTheMomentAndMyTeethAreStillHurtingALot
    #IbruprofenSeemsToTakeTheEdgeOffOfItButIThinkOneOfMyTeethNeedsToComeOut
    #TiagoSaidIfIGetItOutThenEventuallyTheNextOneWillNeedToComeOutAndSoOnAndHowWillIEatWithNoTeeth
    #IPointedOutThatBHasBeenDoingPrettyWellWithHerGumsForALongTime
    #ItRainedAllDayYesterdayButIDidNotCareSoMuchAsItIsTheWeekend
    #WeStillWentOutForAWalkAnywaysAndItWasQuiteNice
    #PortugalIsCurrentlyOnTheGreenTravelListSoWeAreLookingAtBookingATrip
    #ICanNotBelieveThatBIsNearlyAYearOldAndSheHasNotMetHerPortugueseGrandparentsYet
    #WeJustHaveToHopeThatThingsDoNotGetWorseAndThatWeWillNotHaveToQuarantineInAHotel
    #TheTripIsFaffyEnoughAsItIsLetAloneWithTravellingWithABabyWithCovidRestrictions
    #ItIsAMinimumOfTwoFlightsToGetToHisHomeIslandSoItIsLookingForTripsThatDoNotHaveMegaLayovers
    #MostOfTheFlightsAreEitherSuperEarlyInTheMorningOrTheyArriveBackLateAtNight
    #WhichWouldNotBeSoBadIfTheyWereFromBirminghamButWeWillHaveToTravelToManchesterOrLondon
    #AndItProbablyWillBeLondonAsTheyHaveFlightsThatLeaveAndArriveAtOkayishTimes
    #IAmAlreadyFeelingStressedAboutHavingToGetToAndFromTheAirports
    #PlusSortingOutTestingAndDealingWithDifferentAirlinesAndLuggage
    #IShouldNotComplainAsIKnowWeAreLuckyToBeAbleToGoAway
    #IfItWasNotForSeeingHisFamilyAndGoingToAWeddingAndHavingToSortOutThingsThereWeWouldJustLeaveItThough
    #OrIGuessWeWouldHaveMaybeTriedALocationThatWasALotEasierToGetTo
    #WeAlsoNeedToSortOutCotsAndCarSeatsAndHighchairsAndThingsSoThatIsMoreFunToLookAt
    #IJustWantToSwimInTheSeaAndHaveAChangeOfScenery
    #IDidNotBotherGoingToMyParentsHouseTheOtherDayAsICouldNotBeBotheredToPackUpAllOfBsThings
    #ByTheTimeIHadFinishingVentingInMyPostAndBlogIFeltMuchBetter
    #MyMumSaysSheIsSurprisedThatWeAllHaveNotArguedALotMoreThanWeHave
    #ItIsNiceSeeingMyNanEveryDayAndIFeelGuiltyThatWeAreGoingAwayButItWillBeGoodForUsAll
    #IJustHopeThatWeWillNotHaveToCancelOurTripAfterAllOfThisPlanningButLetsSee

  • Failing To Imitate B Playing With Her Socks While B Tried To Make It Look Like She Took The Photo (26th May 2021)
     
    #WeKeepALotOfHerSocksInTheLivingRoomByHerJacketsSoThatWeCanPutThemOnBeforeGoingOut
    #BHasANewishThingOfGettingThemAndJustPlayingWithThem
    #SheMainlyWavesThemAroundButSometimesSheTriesToEatThem
    #SomeGoodNewsIsThatIPassedMyDrivingTheoryTestThisWeek
    #MyMumWatchedBWhileIWentIntoBirminghamCityCentre
    #TheTrainWasBusierThanLastTimeAndSeeingOtherKidsBeingPushedAroundInPushchairsMadeMeMissB
    #INeedToFindTheCourageToTakeHerThereSometimeButIFeelABitWorried
    #IHaveNotTakenHerThatFarAwayFromHomeByMyselfBeforeButIShouldTryToDoItSoon
    #InTwoWeeksTiagoWillHaveAWeekOffSoIAmLookingForwardToThat
    #MaybeWeWillGoToBirminghamThenSoAtLeastItWillNotBeSoScaryAsTakingHerByMyself
    #IWasSurprisedThatIPassedMyTestAsThereWereAFewThingsIKnewNothingAbout
    #NowIJustNeedToFindADrivingInstructorAndGetDrivingWhichIAmExcitedForButAlsoNervousAbout
    #IQuicklyWentToAGalleryAfterwardsWhichWasMyFirstVisitToOneSinceMovingToBirmingham
    #IHadToGetBackHomeToTakeBToHerBabyClassSoItWasASuperSpeedyVisit
    #TheNightBeforeMyTestBWasWakingUpEveryTwoHoursOrSoWhichSheNeverDoes
    #IThinkSheIsTeethingAndSheIsNotVeryWell
    #TheOtherMorningSheFellAsleepOnMyNanLessThanAnHourAfterSheHadWokenUpWhichSheRarelyDoes
    #IAmFineAfterHavingAToothRemovedButNowTiagoHasAToothThatIsPlayingUp
    #HeManagedToGetToTheDentistYesterdayAndTheyGaveHimSomePenicillin
    #IfWeManageToMakeItToPortugalThisSummerThenTiagosDentistCousinWillSortHimOut
    #WeManagedToGetToBsClassOnTimeAndAfterwardsIThoughtSheWouldNotNapOnTheWayHome
    #IHadPutHerHoodUpAndAfter5MinutesICheckedOnHerAndItWasAllTheWayDownToHerMouthAndSheWasAsleep
    #SheWasSleepingVeryHeavilyWhileIPushedHerAroundThenJustSatOnABench
    #MyLegsWereLikeJellyAsIWasNotUsedToWalkingSoMuchInOneDay
    #LastNightIWasLyingDownOnTheFloorAndBCameOver
    #IThoughtWeWereGoingToHaveASweetMomentButSheStuckHerThumbUpMyNose
    #ItWasFunnyButItDidHurtAndMyNoseBledABit
    #NextWeekIsHalfTermWhichMeansHerClassesAndGroupsWillNotBeRunning
    #TheWeatherIsGettingBetterAtLeastSoHopefullyWeCanJustSitInTheParkMore
    #IAmYetToTryGoingToSoftPlayAgainButIShouldGiveTheOneWeHaveNotGoneToAChance
     


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