TRIALS | Shortlisted Project - PhMuseum 2020 Photographers Grant - PhMuseum

TRIALS

  • Access

  • Beginning

  • Pillar's Arm

  • To See Myself Alive

  • My Signature

  • Hand of a Veteran

  • Stomach Pain

  • Wings

  • The Gray Room

  • 15 Mouths, or Independence

  • Brail Wall

  • Witnesses

  • Deflect / Armor

  • Sharon's Radiation Mask

  • Tethered by Voice

  • Atomic Crown

  • Needing Wishes

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