"I haven't cried in ten years..." | Shortlisted Project - PhMuseum 2020 Photographers Grant - PhMuseum

"I haven't cried in ten years..."

  • A blood-stained shirt belonging to a victim of a terrorist attack that left almost 50 people dead in Karrada, Baghdad, in 2010.

  • A flag and a rose, symbol of a death, on the door of a grieved household in Baghdad.

  • Guns belonging to militiamen from Asaib Ahl al-Haq, a pro-Iranian faction of southern Iraq known for killing activists and protesters during the 2019 revolution.

  • Nada, 24. "I’m a Shia muslim who lived in a Sunni neighborhood of Bagdad, happily. But the 2006 civil war broke and we were suddenly forced to leave everything behind. I was brutally unrooted from everything I knew and forced to live in constant fear. After that I shut down completely for years and years. I didn’t talk anymore, I couldn’t sleep, I stoped studying, got bullied at school, became antisocial. It’s only when the 2019 revolution appeared that I felt like having a purpose again. I started drawing, painting on the walls of Baghdad revolutionary imagery, I opened up and started talking again. I discovered that thousands of people my age hoped for the same things in Iraq. But I know that even if I leave the country, wherever I go, I will carry the violence of Iraq with me, always."

  • A man weeps and beats himself during Arbaeen, the biggest Shia celebration in the world commemorating the Death of Imam Hussein. Holy City of Karbala, Iraq.

  • Wound of a militiaman from the 2016 conflict against the Islamic State. Bassorah, Iraq.

  • Healing through faith. Sufi Shrine of Alexanzanah, Baghdad, Iraq.

  • A Shia woman cries in Abbas Mosque. Karbala, Iraq.

  • Leaflet representing Jesus Christ, distributed in a church in Baghdad.

  • A young kid from a poor suburb of Bassorah plays with his bird. The Iraqi youth has never experienced a period of peace in their lives.

  • Mustafa, 25. "Even if I wanted to live, people here wouldn't let me. We used to have one Saddam, now we have thousands. I can't even write my poetry without being threatened. I've seen relatives, friends, dying in front of me. I don't sleep since I'm 11 years old, I feel like a deadman walking, yet I haven't cried in ten years. I've seen psychologists but they only told me to pray more. So, I know that I will kill myself, I even know how already: hanged on al-Shahada bridge, embraced by the Tigris river below me and the sky of Iraq above me"

  • Mustafa's bed in Karrada, Baghdad. "And so every day, Alone you are left On the edges of the outer chairs, In one of the tired cafes, On the sidewalks, On the baldness of the elderly. And so every day, You will die, Without a friend, Without a family, Without a sound, buried in your own words Words that no one ever reads. All those poems that you kept for yourself, It won’t do you any good now To think about how much you should’ve shown it to someone. And so every day, You will die. A forgotten poet, Unknown from the world." - Poem by Mustafa.

  • F. survived the 2017 coalition-led offensive in the city of Mosul, in northern Iraq, during the war against Daesh. She lives in a refugee camp in Duhok since then. Iraqi Kurdistan.

  • An Shia man in the Iraqi marshes, that were destroyed at 90% by Saddam Hussein in 1991 in order to dislodge and fight the Shia muslims rebelling against his regime hiding there.

  • A verse of a poem by Iraqi poet Muthaffar al-Nawab tattooed on the chest of a youth from the 2019 protests: "My Lord, the pus has reached my throat"

  • A picture of Fatima's boyfriend on his death bed, after being fatally shot during the 2019 protests in Baghdad, Iraq.

  • Risperidone is an antipsychotic used to treat mental/mood disorders such as schizophrenia, or bipolar ity. Bassorah, Iraq.

  • Brother Louis Elkisse, 53. "I was born Christian, in Qaraqosh. I fought for eight years during the Iran-Iraq war. I saw my community being slaughtered and my house burnt down in my birth town by Daesh in 2014. I’ve also been wounded three times during terrorist attacks against the Christian community in this church. The last time was in 2010, Al-Qaeda entered the church and killed more than 45 people, including two priests. But I will never leave Iraq. If we leave, then they would win."

  • Brother Louis' bible, with a bullet from the 2010 attack that pierced it. The shots left him severely wounded and he lost definitely the hearing of his left ear.

  • In October 2010, an attack by Al-Qaeda at Our Lady Of Salvation church left 45 faithfuls dead, including two priests. Baghdad, Iraq.

{"id":38851,"grant_id":17,"user_id":42559,"grant_submission_status_id":4,"grant_result_type_id":null,"cover_block_id":426806,"story_id":39197,"place_id":null,"title":"\"I haven't cried in ten years...\"","excerpt":"","excerpt_raw":"","body":"<p>\"We used to have one Saddam, now we have thousands\u201d With a distant look and a soft voice, Mustafa tells me these words on a warm September evening in Baghdad. His words are reminiscent of those of so many Iraqis, who have lost all hope and purpose during the years of conflict and violence that still plague Iraq today.\r<\/p><p>Violence seems to have become a self-perpetuating social process in Iraq, as the country's history has been marked by a succession of traumatic events. Since the reign of the despot Saddam Hussein, during which it was elevated to the rank of a political virtue, the country seems to be immersed in a genuine ethos of violence that has left a vivid mark on the country's collective memory and still prevents any reconciliation and reconstruction.\u00a0\r<\/p><p>For decades, the war has killed, mutilated, and grieved millions of Iraqis, affecting every aspect of their lives. Today, society finds itself brutalised by this permanent state of war that has lasted for 40 years. \r<\/p><p>For the younger generations, every in-between period has been one of deprivation, hyper-militarisation, and total loss of future prospects. The imaginary of death and suffering is omnipresent, amplified by the ambient martyrology of the Shiite religion, which places at the heart of its rituals the story of the violent death of Imam Hussein, whose blood soaked the soil of the holy city of Karbala.\r<\/p><p>And yet, the issue of trauma is a thorny one, with a particularly strong stigma towards anything to do with psychological problems. Mental health issues are seen as an anomaly, a weakness or the work of a 'jinn' that can only be cured by prayer or isolation. With only about twenty recognised psychologists in the whole country, how can the wounds of the past be properly healed ?\u00a0\r<\/p><p>This project attempts to answer this question, suggesting different mechanisms that Iraqis turn to in order to ward off this veritable syllogism of trauma and despair. The revival of religion, art in all its forms, popular uprising with the 2019 revolution, but also the reiteration of violence, seem to be as many mechanisms that stem from this delicate relationship that Iraq has with its brutal past.<\/p>","body_raw":"\"We used to have one Saddam, now we have thousands\u201d With a distant look and a soft voice, Mustafa tells me these words on a warm September evening in Baghdad. His words are reminiscent of those of so many Iraqis, who have lost all hope and purpose during the years of conflict and violence that still plague Iraq today.\r\nViolence seems to have become a self-perpetuating social process in Iraq, as the country's history has been marked by a succession of traumatic events. Since the reign of the despot Saddam Hussein, during which it was elevated to the rank of a political virtue, the country seems to be immersed in a genuine ethos of violence that has left a vivid mark on the country's collective memory and still prevents any reconciliation and reconstruction.\u00a0\r\n\r\nFor decades, the war has killed, mutilated, and grieved millions of Iraqis, affecting every aspect of their lives. Today, society finds itself brutalised by this permanent state of war that has lasted for 40 years. \r\nFor the younger generations, every in-between period has been one of deprivation, hyper-militarisation, and total loss of future prospects. The imaginary of death and suffering is omnipresent, amplified by the ambient martyrology of the Shiite religion, which places at the heart of its rituals the story of the violent death of Imam Hussein, whose blood soaked the soil of the holy city of Karbala.\r\n\r\nAnd yet, the issue of trauma is a thorny one, with a particularly strong stigma towards anything to do with psychological problems. Mental health issues are seen as an anomaly, a weakness or the work of a 'jinn' that can only be cured by prayer or isolation. With only about twenty recognised psychologists in the whole country, how can the wounds of the past be properly healed ?\u00a0\r\n\r\nThis project attempts to answer this question, suggesting different mechanisms that Iraqis turn to in order to ward off this veritable syllogism of trauma and despair. The revival of religion, art in all its forms, popular uprising with the 2019 revolution, but also the reiteration of violence, seem to be as many mechanisms that stem from this delicate relationship that Iraq has with its brutal past.","social_approval":1,"is_shortlisted":1,"is_other":0,"is_good":0,"is_strong":0,"is_ongoing":1,"is_unpublished":0,"sent_first_email_reminder":0,"awaiting_payment":1,"has_started_payment":1,"has_started_paypal_payment":0,"is_public":0,"media_ok":0,"has_tracked":1,"amount_paid":36,"original_price":36,"external_id":"cs_live_a11090yzCwdyHsV0J1Vo25NViY3E5hEiyWPMKE31eHwqbjb9xKQHwtlcpI","payment_id":"pi_3JhyEbD9Te8dh8Es161u6Kpe","session_id":null,"token":"iFTA4Kw2q5HnL1APZi2Q4f6vbavgkJBN","grant_order_id":16632,"submitted_at":"2021-10-07T15:10:46.000000Z","affiliate_id":null,"is_forced_public":1,"address_1":null,"city":null,"region":null,"country":"FR","postcode":null,"codice_fiscale":null,"started_at":"2020-01-01T00:00:00.000000Z","ended_at":null,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:23:11.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-19T07:50:44.000000Z","place":null,"publications":[],"categories":[],"tags":[{"id":348,"tag":"trauma","created_at":"2015-12-07T17:05:39.000000Z","updated_at":"2015-12-07T17:05:39.000000Z","pivot":{"grant_submission_id":38851,"tag_id":348}},{"id":912,"tag":"iraq","created_at":"2015-12-07T17:05:43.000000Z","updated_at":"2015-12-07T17:05:43.000000Z","pivot":{"grant_submission_id":38851,"tag_id":912}},{"id":405,"tag":"conflict","created_at":"2015-12-07T17:05:39.000000Z","updated_at":"2015-12-07T17:05:39.000000Z","pivot":{"grant_submission_id":38851,"tag_id":405}},{"id":426,"tag":"violence","created_at":"2015-12-07T17:05:39.000000Z","updated_at":"2015-12-07T17:05:39.000000Z","pivot":{"grant_submission_id":38851,"tag_id":426}},{"id":453,"tag":"religion","created_at":"2015-12-07T17:05:39.000000Z","updated_at":"2015-12-07T17:05:39.000000Z","pivot":{"grant_submission_id":38851,"tag_id":453}}],"blocks":[{"id":425664,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553719,"position":-1,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:00.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:22.000000Z","caption":"A blood-stained shirt belonging to a victim of a terrorist attack that left almost 50 people dead in Karrada, Baghdad, in 2010.","caption_raw":"A blood-stained shirt belonging to a victim of a terrorist attack that left almost 50 people dead in Karrada, Baghdad, in 2010.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553719,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy01oe15a15651e.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:00.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:00.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":425659,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553714,"position":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:51.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:22.000000Z","caption":"A flag and a rose, symbol of a death, on the door of a grieved household in Baghdad.","caption_raw":"A flag and a rose, symbol of a death, on the door of a grieved household in Baghdad.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553714,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy01f859e2dcf6a.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:51.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:51.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":425671,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553726,"position":1,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:11.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:22.000000Z","caption":"Guns belonging to militiamen from Asaib Ahl al-Haq, a pro-Iranian faction of southern Iraq known for killing activists and protesters during the 2019 revolution.","caption_raw":"Guns belonging to militiamen from Asaib Ahl al-Haq, a pro-Iranian faction of southern Iraq known for killing activists and protesters during the 2019 revolution.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553726,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy01z87b1075374.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:11.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:11.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":425666,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553721,"position":2,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:01.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:22.000000Z","caption":"Nada, 24.\r\n\"I\u2019m a Shia muslim who lived in a Sunni neighborhood of Bagdad, happily. But the 2006 civil war broke and we were suddenly forced to leave everything behind. I was brutally unrooted from everything I knew and forced to live in constant fear.\r\nAfter that I shut down completely for years and years. I didn\u2019t talk anymore, I couldn\u2019t sleep, I stoped studying, got bullied at school, became antisocial.\r\nIt\u2019s only when the 2019 revolution appeared that I felt like having a purpose again. I started drawing, painting on the walls of Baghdad revolutionary imagery, I opened up and started talking again. I discovered that thousands of people my age hoped for the same things in Iraq.\r\nBut I know that even if I leave the country, wherever I go, I will carry the violence of Iraq with me, always.\"","caption_raw":"Nada, 24.\r\n\"I\u2019m a Shia muslim who lived in a Sunni neighborhood of Bagdad, happily. But the 2006 civil war broke and we were suddenly forced to leave everything behind. I was brutally unrooted from everything I knew and forced to live in constant fear.\r\nAfter that I shut down completely for years and years. I didn\u2019t talk anymore, I couldn\u2019t sleep, I stoped studying, got bullied at school, became antisocial.\r\nIt\u2019s only when the 2019 revolution appeared that I felt like having a purpose again. I started drawing, painting on the walls of Baghdad revolutionary imagery, I opened up and started talking again. I discovered that thousands of people my age hoped for the same things in Iraq.\r\nBut I know that even if I leave the country, wherever I go, I will carry the violence of Iraq with me, always.\"","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553721,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy01pe696bcac0b.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:01.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:01.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":438956,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":566106,"position":3,"created_at":"2021-10-07T10:53:38.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:22.000000Z","caption":"A man weeps and beats himself during Arbaeen, the biggest Shia celebration in the world commemorating the Death of Imam Hussein. Holy City of Karbala, Iraq.","caption_raw":"A man weeps and beats himself during Arbaeen, the biggest Shia celebration in the world commemorating the Death of Imam Hussein. Holy City of Karbala, Iraq.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":566106,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/r0lsxedadd5dfad0.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-10-07T10:53:38.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T10:53:38.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":425670,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553725,"position":4,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:11.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:22.000000Z","caption":"Wound of a militiaman from the 2016 conflict against the Islamic State. Bassorah, Iraq.","caption_raw":"Wound of a militiaman from the 2016 conflict against the Islamic State. Bassorah, Iraq.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553725,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy01yda401ca016.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:11.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:11.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":425672,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553727,"position":5,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:11.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:22.000000Z","caption":"Healing through faith. Sufi Shrine of Alexanzanah, Baghdad, Iraq.","caption_raw":"Healing through faith. Sufi Shrine of Alexanzanah, Baghdad, Iraq.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553727,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy01z0fbf733e52.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:11.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:11.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":426806,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":554797,"position":6,"created_at":"2021-09-29T13:22:36.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:22.000000Z","caption":"A Shia woman cries in Abbas Mosque. Karbala, Iraq.","caption_raw":"A Shia woman cries in Abbas Mosque. Karbala, Iraq.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":554797,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/r076hobcc797f278.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-29T13:22:36.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-29T13:22:36.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":425661,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553716,"position":7,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:56.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:22.000000Z","caption":"Leaflet representing Jesus Christ, distributed in a church in Baghdad.","caption_raw":"Leaflet representing Jesus Christ, distributed in a church in Baghdad.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553716,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy01k11f543294e.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:56.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:56.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":425668,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553723,"position":8,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:05.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:22.000000Z","caption":"A young kid from a poor suburb of Bassorah plays with his bird. The Iraqi youth has never experienced a period of peace in their lives.","caption_raw":"A young kid from a poor suburb of Bassorah plays with his bird. The Iraqi youth has never experienced a period of peace in their lives.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553723,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy01t65d676915a.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:05.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:05.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":440059,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":567139,"position":9,"created_at":"2021-10-07T14:58:56.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:22.000000Z","caption":"Mustafa, 25.\r\n\"Even if I wanted to live, people here wouldn't let me. We used to have one Saddam, now we have thousands.\r\nI can't even write my poetry without being threatened. I've seen relatives, friends, dying in front of me. I don't sleep since I'm 11 years old, I feel like a deadman walking, yet I haven't cried in ten years. I've seen psychologists but they only told me to pray more. So, I know that I will kill myself, I even know how already: hanged on al-Shahada bridge, embraced by the Tigris river below me and the sky of Iraq above me\"","caption_raw":"Mustafa, 25.\r\n\"Even if I wanted to live, people here wouldn't let me. We used to have one Saddam, now we have thousands.\r\nI can't even write my poetry without being threatened. I've seen relatives, friends, dying in front of me. I don't sleep since I'm 11 years old, I feel like a deadman walking, yet I haven't cried in ten years. I've seen psychologists but they only told me to pray more. So, I know that I will kill myself, I even know how already: hanged on al-Shahada bridge, embraced by the Tigris river below me and the sky of Iraq above me\"","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":567139,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/r0m4a89cfb23ed3e.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-10-07T14:58:56.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T14:58:56.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":425657,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553712,"position":10,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:45.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:22.000000Z","caption":"Mustafa's bed in Karrada, Baghdad.\r\n\"And so every day,\r\nAlone you are left\r\nOn the edges of the outer chairs,\r\nIn one of the tired cafes,\r\nOn the sidewalks,\r\nOn the baldness of the elderly.\r\n\r\nAnd so every day,\r\nYou will die,\r\nWithout a friend,\r\nWithout a family,\r\nWithout a sound, buried in your own words\r\nWords that no one ever reads.\r\n\r\nAll those poems that you kept for yourself,\r\nIt won\u2019t do you\u00a0any good now\r\nTo think about how much you should\u2019ve shown it to someone.\r\n\r\nAnd so every day,\r\nYou will die.\r\nA forgotten poet, \r\nUnknown from the world.\"\r\n\r\n- Poem by Mustafa.","caption_raw":"Mustafa's bed in Karrada, Baghdad.\r\n\"And so every day,\r\nAlone you are left\r\nOn the edges of the outer chairs,\r\nIn one of the tired cafes,\r\nOn the sidewalks,\r\nOn the baldness of the elderly.\r\n\r\nAnd so every day,\r\nYou will die,\r\nWithout a friend,\r\nWithout a family,\r\nWithout a sound, buried in your own words\r\nWords that no one ever reads.\r\n\r\nAll those poems that you kept for yourself,\r\nIt won\u2019t do you\u00a0any good now\r\nTo think about how much you should\u2019ve shown it to someone.\r\n\r\nAnd so every day,\r\nYou will die.\r\nA forgotten poet, \r\nUnknown from the world.\"\r\n\r\n- Poem by Mustafa.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553712,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy0190e377e8b74.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:45.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:45.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":425674,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553729,"position":11,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:12.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:21.000000Z","caption":"F. survived the 2017 coalition-led offensive in the city of Mosul, in northern Iraq, during the war against Daesh. She lives in a refugee camp in Duhok since then. Iraqi Kurdistan.","caption_raw":"F. survived the 2017 coalition-led offensive in the city of Mosul, in northern Iraq, during the war against Daesh. She lives in a refugee camp in Duhok since then. Iraqi Kurdistan.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553729,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy01z3e77f1af48.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:12.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:12.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":425669,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553724,"position":12,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:10.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:21.000000Z","caption":"An Shia man in the Iraqi marshes, that were destroyed at 90% by Saddam Hussein in 1991 in order to dislodge and fight the Shia muslims rebelling against his regime hiding there.","caption_raw":"An Shia man in the Iraqi marshes, that were destroyed at 90% by Saddam Hussein in 1991 in order to dislodge and fight the Shia muslims rebelling against his regime hiding there.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553724,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy01ycc08ffe377.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:10.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:10.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":427188,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":555183,"position":13,"created_at":"2021-09-30T08:11:19.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:21.000000Z","caption":"A verse of a poem by Iraqi poet Muthaffar al-Nawab tattooed on the chest of a youth from the 2019 protests: \"My Lord, the pus has reached my throat\"","caption_raw":"A verse of a poem by Iraqi poet Muthaffar al-Nawab tattooed on the chest of a youth from the 2019 protests: \"My Lord, the pus has reached my throat\"","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":555183,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/r08mqu02a6566a83.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-30T08:11:19.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-30T08:11:19.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":425662,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553717,"position":14,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:56.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:21.000000Z","caption":"A picture of Fatima's boyfriend on his death bed, after being fatally shot during the 2019 protests in Baghdad, Iraq.","caption_raw":"A picture of Fatima's boyfriend on his death bed, after being fatally shot during the 2019 protests in Baghdad, Iraq.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553717,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy01k3af7f267b7.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:56.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:56.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":425660,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553715,"position":15,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:51.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:21.000000Z","caption":"Risperidone is an antipsychotic used to treat mental\/mood disorders such as schizophrenia, or bipolar ity. Bassorah, Iraq.","caption_raw":"Risperidone is an antipsychotic used to treat mental\/mood disorders such as schizophrenia, or bipolar ity. Bassorah, Iraq.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553715,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy01f0a7842e67c.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:51.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:51.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":425663,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553718,"position":16,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:56.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:22.000000Z","caption":"Brother Louis Elkisse, 53.\r\n\"I was born Christian, in Qaraqosh.\r\nI fought for eight years during the Iran-Iraq war.\r\nI saw my community being slaughtered and my house burnt down in my birth town by Daesh in 2014.\r\nI\u2019ve also been wounded three times during terrorist attacks against the Christian community in this church.\r\nThe last time was in 2010, Al-Qaeda entered the church and killed more than 45 people, including two priests.\r\nBut I will never leave Iraq. If we leave, then they would win.\"","caption_raw":"Brother Louis Elkisse, 53.\r\n\"I was born Christian, in Qaraqosh.\r\nI fought for eight years during the Iran-Iraq war.\r\nI saw my community being slaughtered and my house burnt down in my birth town by Daesh in 2014.\r\nI\u2019ve also been wounded three times during terrorist attacks against the Christian community in this church.\r\nThe last time was in 2010, Al-Qaeda entered the church and killed more than 45 people, including two priests.\r\nBut I will never leave Iraq. If we leave, then they would win.\"","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553718,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy01kd9701aeccb.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:56.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:56.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":425665,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553720,"position":17,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:01.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:21.000000Z","caption":"Brother Louis' bible, with a bullet from the 2010 attack that pierced it. The shots left him severely wounded and he lost definitely the hearing of his left ear.","caption_raw":"Brother Louis' bible, with a bullet from the 2010 attack that pierced it. The shots left him severely wounded and he lost definitely the hearing of his left ear.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553720,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy01p467ac3085c.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:01.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:25:01.000000Z"},"story_block":null},{"id":425658,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":553713,"position":18,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:51.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:22.000000Z","caption":"In October 2010, an attack by Al-Qaeda at Our Lady Of Salvation church left 45 faithfuls dead, including two priests. Baghdad, Iraq.","caption_raw":"In October 2010, an attack by Al-Qaeda at Our Lady Of Salvation church left 45 faithfuls dead, including two priests. Baghdad, Iraq.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":553713,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/qzy01ed1115964da.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:50.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-24T14:24:50.000000Z"},"story_block":null}],"cover_block_image":{"id":426806,"grant_submission_id":38851,"story_block_id":null,"image_id":554797,"position":6,"created_at":"2021-09-29T13:22:36.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-10-07T15:09:22.000000Z","caption":"A Shia woman cries in Abbas Mosque. Karbala, Iraq.","caption_raw":"A Shia woman cries in Abbas Mosque. Karbala, Iraq.","deleted_at":null,"image":{"id":554797,"filename":"\/users\/42559\/grant-submissions\/38851\/r076hobcc797f278.jpg","has_tried_to_detect_moderation_labels":0,"has_moderation_labels":0,"moderation_label_json":null,"is_explicit":0,"is_not_explicit":0,"explicit_percentage":0,"created_at":"2021-09-29T13:22:36.000000Z","updated_at":"2021-09-29T13:22:36.000000Z"}},"user":{"id":42559,"firstname":"Chloe","lastname":"Sharrock","username":"csharrock","can_skip_grant_payment":0,"is_unsubscribed_from_grant_emails":0,"disabled_at":null,"gender":"female","has_agreed_to_newsletter":0,"has_agreed_to_newsletter_at":null,"timezone":null,"is_legacy":0,"is_collateral_juror":0,"legacy_id":null,"accepted_tandcs_may18_at":"2019-09-28 08:25:00","last_logged_in_at":"2022-10-11T12:02:01.000000Z","last_logged_in_country":"FR","registered_country":null,"is_not_spam":0,"when_legacy_potd":null,"delete_at":null,"created_at":"2019-09-28T08:25:00.000000Z","updated_at":"2022-10-11T12:02:01.000000Z","deleted_at":null,"profile":{"id":42499,"user_id":42559,"born_in_id":null,"based_in_id":145412,"currently_in_id":null,"nationality_id":27,"avatar":"\/users\/42559\/avatars\/r2evhp88c1881e07.png","cover_image":null,"born_at":"1992-06-02T00:00:00.000000Z","profession":null,"bio":null,"long_bio":"<p>Born in 1992, Chloe is bathed early in an artistic environment in which images are considered as a privileged medium to convey emotions and commitments. She first enrolls in Art History studies in Lyon, specializing in the artistic trends of the 14th to the 17th century, a field still deeply influencing the aesthetics of her work today. She then concludes her education with Cinema Studies in Paris, specialized in aesthetics and documentary making.\r<\/p><p>Motivated by a dire need to bear witness of the world\u2019s turmoil, she decides in 2017 that her medium will be photography.\r<\/p><p>After a year working regularly in Lebanon among Lebanese, Syrian and Palestinian women, Chloe pushes a step further her commitments and creates the association \u201cAlhawiat\u201d, promoting the role of women in the reconstruction of post-conflictual societies in the Middle-East through conferences and discussion panels in France.\r<\/p><p>Since then, she continues focusing on the Middle-East and women\u2019s rights, through stories exploring violence in all of its forms. In 2019, her commitment to women's rights takes her to India, where she produces the story \"Sugar Girls\" about coerced hysterectomies, that will be exhibited at Visa Pour L'image the following year and awarded with grants from the CNAP (Centre National des Arts Plastiques), La Scam and the French Ministry of Culture. \r<\/p><p>Her work has been published in the international press such as Newsweek Japan, The Washington Post, Lib\u00e9ration, Le Temps, Neue Zurcher Zeitung...\r<\/p><p>She's a member of MYOP Agency since 2021.<\/p>","long_bio_raw":"Born in 1992, Chloe is bathed early in an artistic environment in which images are considered as a privileged medium to convey emotions and commitments. She first enrolls in Art History studies in Lyon, specializing in the artistic trends of the 14th to the 17th century, a field still deeply influencing the aesthetics of her work today. She then concludes her education with Cinema Studies in Paris, specialized in aesthetics and documentary making.\r\n\r\nMotivated by a dire need to bear witness of the world\u2019s turmoil, she decides in 2017 that her medium will be photography.\r\n\r\nAfter a year working regularly in Lebanon among Lebanese, Syrian and Palestinian women, Chloe pushes a step further her commitments and creates the association \u201cAlhawiat\u201d, promoting the role of women in the reconstruction of post-conflictual societies in the Middle-East through conferences and discussion panels in France.\r\n\r\nSince then, she continues focusing on the Middle-East and women\u2019s rights, through stories exploring violence in all of its forms. In 2019, her commitment to women's rights takes her to India, where she produces the story \"Sugar Girls\" about coerced hysterectomies, that will be exhibited at Visa Pour L'image the following year and awarded with grants from the CNAP (Centre National des Arts Plastiques), La Scam and the French Ministry of Culture. \r\n\r\nHer work has been published in the international press such as Newsweek Japan, The Washington Post, Lib\u00e9ration, Le Temps, Neue Zurcher Zeitung...\r\nShe's a member of MYOP Agency since 2021.","display_name":null,"website_url":"https:\/\/www.sharrockchloe.com\/","profile_type_id":2,"show_age":1,"twitter_handle":null,"facebook_handle":null,"linkedin_handle":null,"skype_handle":null,"google_plus_handle":null,"pinterest_handle":null,"instagram_handle":"sharrock.chloe","vimeo_handle":null,"youtube_handle":null,"telephone":null,"company_name":null,"address_1":null,"address_2":null,"city":null,"region":null,"country":null,"postcode":null,"vat_id":null,"codice_fiscale":null,"codice_destinatario":null,"pec_destinatario":null,"show_explicit_content":"0","created_at":"2019-09-28T08:25:00.000000Z","updated_at":"2022-02-16T12:50:11.000000Z"}}}