You Have Nothing to Worry About.

  • "I fell down and broke my jaw.", 2012

  • Note from Adam to Mom, 2012

  • “I need this for protection”, Mom’s BB Gun, 2014

  • All of Mom's Prescriptions, 2014

  • The last time Dad remembers Mom being 'normal'., 1996

  • Mom's Vacation, 2013

  • Appendectomy, 2013

  • "Here take these, you will feel better.", Xanax from Mom, 2013

  • Pool Day, 2015

  • Mom's Sink, 2015

  • Mom's Mask Pt. 1, 2011

  • Under the Drivers Seat, 2016

  • Intravenous Fluids, 2014

  • Florida, 2016

  • Rocking Chair, 2013

  • In the Flowers, 2015

  • Mom's Mask Pt. 2, 2016

  • Wallpaper, 2013

  • Looking for her cheerleading uniform, 2018

  • Mom At Creve Coeur Lake, 2016

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