2017 - 2018
I was born in 1987 in Cracow, Poland. At the time the Berlin wall was still standing. My parents wanted to escape what they didn’t know would be the last traces of communism left in the country. We first fled to a refugee camp in Germany for about a year before moving to Canada for 7 years. Our final destination was Switzerland, where I still live today. If I Could Only Remember is a voyage through my earliest childhood memories between the ages of 0 and 3. It all begins with my very first memory, which strangely enough coincides with the last day my parents and I spent at our refugee camp in Germany, just before flying to Canada. The memory consists of me sitting on the edge of a Jacuzzi looking at my mother who’s wrapping me in a big towel. Through this project, I am retracing the memories I have experienced but also those my mind created with the stories I’ve been told by my parents and relatives. I’ve tried to represent everything as in a dream, or maybe as a blurred memory. Some aspects of my work are anchored in the real world but are represented as dreams. I’m alternating between the two worlds as if I were confused about what it the truth and what is a representation I’ve led myself to believe was true. With these images, I want to show the viewer that I am looking for some sort of an answer, that I am trying to recreate something. Maybe I’m trying to recreate a truth. This is all a reflection based on my blurred memories that I am trying to rediscover, to put a fresh image on. This project is my final-year work presented at the CEPV in Vevey, Switzerland in June 2017. It was awarded the USPP price at this occasion.
This work consists so far of 26 photographs.
If I Could Only Remember was exhibited as part of the Pasquart Prize 2017 in Biel, Switzerland, at the 73rd Biennale of Contemporary Art of La Chaux-de-Fonds, Switzerland, and was a finalist at the LensCulture Exposure Award 2018. More recently this project was shortlisted for the VFG Nachwuchsförderpreis 2018, was a finalist of the Swiss Photo Awards, was presented at Photo London 2018 and Voies Off 2018 in Arles...